Pity party for one =o(

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Hi guys...well, I am home...sniff. First...today was supposed to be

my surgery date. Obviously, that didn't happen.

Background...we live in CT, but I wanted Dr. Thayer (Newton MA), so

we went up to Middletown RI where we have friends, so they would be

able to watch our three children while I was in surgery. My Mom flew

up here Saturday for the surgery from Georgia. My dh is in the Coast

Guard and it took just shy of an act of congress to get these two

weeks off because of his crazy hectic underway schedule and fishery

operations. We booked an awesome hotel through the navy (it's

actually a 2 bedroom apartment) months ago. Had my preop testing

last Tuesday, so I was on top of it all. =o)

We drove up to RI yesterday...got everyone settled. Got up early

this morning, my friend came and got the kids and my Mom, dh, and I

head up to Newton. Got there, got checked in at the surgical center,

went upstairs...they gave me all my preop stuff to put on, got

dressed, did all the questions and answer, they did my vitals, and

then it happened. My temp via ear thermometer was 100.4. I had this

nagging feeling, but thought...don't panic...I wasn't sick, I didn't

feel bad, nothing hurt...so it had to be nerves,

something...anything, because I didn't feel sick. The nurse left and

came back in with another ear thermometer...it came out basically the

same. She went and got an oral thermometer and it came out to be

99.5. She said she would have to call Dr. Thayer and let him know.

Then the fellow to do the anethesia came by and he said that wasn't

too bad of a fever and maybe not to worry they would still do the

surgery. I was still hopeful. The nurse came back in and said Dr.

Thayer was going to come down.

He finally showed up and I could tell by the way he looked at me he

wasn't going to do the surgery. lol before he could say a word I

basically begged him not to send me home. He said he was going to

have to, and explained why. I know he was right but it didn't stop

me from bawling anyways. My Mom starts crying too...poor Dr.

Thayer...I know we were hard to break this too. ~sigh~ so no surgery

for me today. They put me on antibiotics for five days. I have no

idea when they might get me rescheduled now...the one girl actually

told me not until the end of December and I bawled again when she

told me that...there's no way I can do it then, we will be moving in

the spring and Dr. Thayer wants a good 6 months post op with me--this

felt like my only chance of making that happen. There is a chance

they may have an opening on Thursday--as a patient called today and

said she was not feeling well, and is supposed to have hers on

Thursday--they said if she doesn't have hers and I am no longer

running a fever I can have her surgery time. I feel guilty for

wanting that slot because it would mean someone else would be sick or

not getting their surgery...but I also pray I can get it because my

Mom will be here still and my dh will still be able to be there too.

I don't know what will happen if I can't get it now...my Mom won't be

able to stay for long and I really am not sure how my dh would be

able to work his leave around another surgery date...and I have to

have someone here to help me with the children.

=o( It's been a hard day. I am emotionally exhausted. I was so

ready for this...I was THIS CLOSE...you all have no idea...then

again, I guess you all DO know. I wanted to wake up today and be on

my way to becoming again...instead I walked out just plain me.

<tears> Please just pray that this will work out for me somehow.

And as sad as I am...I gotta tell ya'll...I couldn't have choosen a

finer surgeon. Truly! Dr. Thayer seemed truly saddened and upset

that this happened, and I gotta tell you when he talked to me, I

could tell the only thing he was concerned about was MY health. The

bottom line is I think many other surgeons might have said " well,

it's just a low grade fever--we'll go ahead " but he didn't want to

take any chances with my health. I have total respect for him. And

bless his heart, I know I was miserable when he told me, I feel a

little bad for being so sad--but I think he probably understood. So

in that sense, I am so grateful for Dr. Thayer, and am really glad I

was willing to go the distance to have him as my surgeon.

Thanks for listening to me whine ya'll =o) I feel better already!

God bless!

Susie