coping ,,NOT

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Why didn't your friend call an ambulance, when he/she found you in that

condition?

Kaylene

I've read so many of these over and over.I was so addicted to

percocet,and i actually got relief.My family called it addiction.I

called it Pain free for 4 to 6 hours.

If i carry a laundry basket im down.I will hurt so bad i get sick, shaky. Ask a

doctor to help ypu here in Kentucky is signing an assured tag around your neck

that says dope seeker.I have a folder that is an inch thick with reports.

my legs are purple swollen. I cry all the time anymore. i hardly ever go out.

Becuase i feel useless. But i can do and i can go when i am not in excruciating

pain.

Doctors should be as responsible for chronic pain suffering as they are for over

writing. one day im fine the next my life was changed forever.

I also had a plan. As i say get me off this ride GOD. And i followed through.

As a friend with a housekey entered he told me my lips were black, eyes rolled

in he back of my head. He worked with me the remaining 5 hours of darkness. I

made it and i still say at times id rather be there than in this body of misery.

Doctors here take good care of people they know, their family etc.But to walk in

have proof on paper,and walk out feeling like id ask to borrow his mercedes. IS

UNREAL. Im very tired.

Today my diagnosis along with a host of spine ,leg doagnosis was stage 3

cervical cancer. And when i aquired the doctor about treating pain, she scolded

me like a child telling me i was more concerned about pain than the ordeal of

getting through the cancer. Two times i thought i outta just get up and leave.

Instead if im still here, i will have the radical hysterectomy June 27. God only

knows thanks for taking time to read this and hopefully someone out there is

resting at bedtime instead of crying.

GOD BLESS