pain and depression

[Guest guest]

Hi all,

I was able to get to my appointment on Friday last week.

She tried to poke around on me but I am so sore that all she could do is just

ask if she could have the letter I wrote with pain clinics in the area and they

would send out another referral for me.

I took my pain letter along for the NP (she is under my PCP and I have seen her

before) to look at and said that she was surprised they didn't write a referral

to the other one as well once the first refusal came thru.

Hubby found out his anti-depressants are not working anymore now, so he felt he

could go off the wagon and we got into it about me being in bed all the time and

that isn't a life and that I need a life.

Find a social life. Said I didn't love him if I didn't do something with him.

All I keep thinking about is the money we don't have to spend to do something

together because we are trying to save the house. I said I would go to the Y but

I need to have a partner and I said I didn't. But being at the house most of the

time isn't " good for me "

I need to put negatives into positives and not jump on the kids so much or on

him. Two things I don't like are the smoking and the drinking, the smoking

affects all of us and so does the other and he knows it costs more money than my

buying two books and my DVD's twice per month. I guess I am waiting for

something to fall that I have something to do when the kids are in school and

have cancelled the sat so we don't have to pay for it anymore.

Which next week the kids are on spring break and my daughter would like it if we

could drive the 150 miles to go see my mother, my dad and stepma live next door.

It just depends on if we get our tax money or not. I know we don't have much for

food either. But the one time we went down there during the summer. I didn't

want to go walking with them and my mom speaks up and says " that is your

depression talking " and I was thinking " I don't think " so I was just feeling a

need to be by myself unless anyone else can tell me that it was what she said it

was?

He just found out too last night that his drinking makes his BP go up and an

erratic heart beat on top of it. He did his bp last night and it was still in

stage 2. No wonder during New Years his BP was around 250/150 and had to put him

on meds to calm his heart down since he was

borderline stroke. I know the numbers were high so don't quote me on the numbers

I gave. I just know it was high enough they thought he would stroke out any

minute.

I don't even know if I can call his doctor and ask if he can have his

anti-depressants upped since I don't know if he had me on his list of

contact for letting me know what is going on between the doctor and him. I go

with him now. The only thing he did was lie to him about not going to

counseling.

And I am thinking about both of us going now instead.

Anyways that is somewhat of an update on me.

I have to go due to I have to get allergy shots in an hour.

Both Hubby and me are in depression and he believes that going walking or

finding out what I " get happy about " is going to lift up how I am feeling and I

don't know how else to explain to him that if I have a migraine or my neck,

shoulders and back hurt, I don't want to do much of anything and sleeping helps

me reset in some ways.

I will write back later. Thanks for listening,

HUGS

G

N. Wisconsin

[Guest guest]

> wrote :

> Find a social life. Said I didn't love him if I didn't do something with him.

,

Call 211 and see what support is available to you and your kids as some places

have free camps that are really great for them, Mad Science, Horse Riding etc.

You have to be really creative but I have helped myself and family and other

students by calling this number so see whats out there.

Good Luck Bennie