Guest guest Posted July 1, 2010 Report Share Posted July 1, 2010 For those of us who believe in the soul living on after death, I often wonder how a BPD feels when they realize the extent of difficulty they have caused their child, and their childs true feelings towards them...hate tinged with love and loathing. Or, are they still BPD...engrained into their soul after this life? And therefore it is still ALL about them? I find myself being guilted (already) into worrying about how she will feel when she passes and finds that she really caused so many problems in my life, just by being. I don't want to hurt anyone. But, honestly, how else will a soul move on without recognition of the truth? They were full time care. They thwarted our personal growth and development at every turn...that would have given confidence, they hedged up the way. Maybe, we all affect others in these ways on some level. But, still I wonder. I love my mother. More, I needed her sincere love, encouragement, and help that was not there in times of trouble. Because, she could not give it. Doesn't mean her intensions weren't in place and that it may have meant alot to her to be a good mother. She just was unable to on so many levels. For that I cry for her. I know, as a mother, I could not bare to think I'd caused my child harm. Of course, I'm not BPD. I'm neuro-typical. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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