dreams

[Guest guest]

My wife and I were discussing our dreams, both now and as children. I had an

epiphany. I had no dreams as a child. I did not want to be something when I

grew up. I did not want to climb Everest, or be a sailor, or see the sunset on

Kilamanjaro.

I wanted to survive. I wanted to go thru a day in which mom and dad did not have

a fight so verbally violent that I hid away, wondering when it would get

physical or fatal. ( Now that I understand how BP s will push your buttons, and

drive you to rage, I understand those fights better, but they still terrified

me. ) I wanted a place of peace and security. I NEVER had it.

When you simply hope to survive and not have your home and world destroyed, you

don t get the luxury of dreams. Most dreams don t come true, but we dream them

because they give us peace and hope and make us happy.

I did not dream dreams. It is another of the terrible losses , to me , of being

a KO. Who knows how empty my life has been owing to that loss?

So, am I alone in this? Or is this another aspect of the life that we all

suffered alone, and thought we were the only one, till we found that KO s have

so much in common, and we were not alone.

Anxious to hear your stories as well.

Doug