Really Irked

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I don't know why it just really irked me. My narc. sister was over and asking a

15 year old who was taking her practice driving. She went on about how our

grandpa had taken her out and taught her to drive on the back roads. She said,

" I don't know who taught you. " Pointing at me. Then, she went on and on.

I thought, " NO ONE took me practice driving. Thanks for noticing! "

Grandma and Grandpa on my bpd moms side had taken she and my narc. brother

under wing, and given them many opportunities...even letting them live with

them. I had a mentally ill father (brain cyst operation left quite nuts). And a

borderline mother. And nobody SAVED me. Even in such a simple task as learning

to drive. Thanks for noticing! I learned to drive quite late.

It just irked me and I don't know why. I guess it just reminded me the

countless ways I was put down in the family my entire life over she and my

brother feigning superiority...of course " they were deserving " and I was not to

have anything, or any help, or even any normal family functioning.

And then I was continually told it was my own fault for living. That I did not

deserve it. They'd just go on about how they were better than me. Narcs that

they are.

I guess there just wasn't some Savior available for me that day. I don't think

it meant that I was any less deserving of one.