Should I invite Nada to my wedding????

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Hi Guys,

Well I get married in two weeks time, wow its flown by.  But I am in a bit of

turmoil, I am unsure as to whether I should invite my Nada to my wedding day??

I have been so upset as of late, because all my childhood memories seem to be

flooding back to me like I dont know what, I feel so sad for what I went through

as a child, and because nada is not capable of being a proper parent I wont have

a father to walk me down the aisle and not much of my maternal family there,

because for my own sanity and to heal, I had to cut them off over a year ago

now.

Its makes me so sad that my family are dysfunctional, a part of me wants to

invite nada, but then there is a huge part of me telling myself that I finally

need to let go of wanting the mother that she will never be, and that I have my

own little family now, as in my beautiful son, and husband to be.   But the

saddness really does overwhelm me, am I grieving for my lost childhood?? Am I

realising how lovely I was as a child and that I never for one minute deserved

the treatment that I got????

Along with the sadness comes the anger, I get so freakin angry, I think I know

in my gut that she aint never going to change, but thoughts really welcome.

Many thanks

xx