a long post and sorry about it

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Right at the start i want to sorry about such a long post our

trials and tribulations never seem to stop. I am at a dead end on the

lower back, Abdomen and Testicular pain. problem, My PM doctor said

he was at a dead end after the stimulation device. and he had no

where to go. I brought up the pain pump to him and I didn't get a

answer from him, As far as staying under the influence of drugs all

the time well I'm that way now. I never go anywhere unless some body

drives me. and I would be happy to just piddle around the house here

and my little shop, I wouldn't bother a sole. But he is against it

for some reason.

My throat cancer doctor acts all cheery all the time . But I know

what's going on when he orders chemo and radiation at the same time,

then surgery as fast after as he can get it. Hell I can read between

the lines. Look I'm sure I can handle all this to what ever end it

comes to. But they seem to think we are fools or little kids that

don't pay any attention to what going on. I have already got all the

finances arranged., Some of the kids my get a surprise but then I do

know all 5 of my grand kids will be able to go to almost any collage

they want to. They are the ones I worried about so I fixed them up.

They don't go to school there is no money, They don't finish collage

there is no money. But if they do all that, each one should get a

good start in life I have got my living will fixed up the way I want

it and I'm sure there will be some upset people about what I chose.

But I think its unbreakable. I know we need to be cheering each other

up in here and I think We do a darn good job of it. But the last two

paragraphs is something we all think about most of the time. I just

wanted everyone to know how good it feels now to have all that

arranged whither I need it or not. Now I can sorta just sit back and

enjoy what were comes up.

sitting here on the out side looking in it seem that maybe you

are getting things in hand. That is great news about the cyst. And if

your bone scan is like mine was you should get a lot more information

about what's going on than any other test I found out the reason it

takes them so long to do one . Its the insurance making the doctors

jump through the hoop again. The older man that backed into you I

don't really know what to say about that. I read every post on here

and so far lately including me I believe at some time in the future

all of us are going to get out life back or at least enough so that

we can be happy again. I'm sorry for such a long post but I was just

in the mood to tell every one on here I'm more that glad to call them

friends.

Ron