Surgery at 2 pm tomorrow.

[Guest guest]

First I want to thank all of you who sent me words of encouragement. Every

little bit helps.

After the pain I had last night when I finished making supper and cleaning up

the kitchen, I don`t know why I`m even worried. I think I could have dropped

over dead and thought it was for the best. I guess not taking the chance would

really be silly.

It`s sort of nice to know that we don`t have to leave here at 4 in the morning

since we have animals to feed outdoors, and a 50 mile drive. But just like me I

see it as more time to worry and wonder. I will be staying for a 23 hour

observation. Just hope they take me out of the surgical ward and let me have a

decent bed. Gosh why do we do this to ourselves Worry Worry.

It was sunny here yesterday, so pain or no pain, when my hubby went down for his

afternoon of sleep, I took off in the car and went to the local coffee shoppe in

town. Had a nice time talking to people. Then I just drove around for a awhile

enjoying the sun. Sure helped my mood, but now that I`m thinking of it thats

what probably shot me down last night. sometimes it`s worth it. I know I will

rot in this house if I just sit here while he sleeps away the day and morning.

I think as soon as I can afford it I will look into one or more of those lights.

I know I really need the sun.

The only thing I am regretting about this is that now I will no longer be a

patient of my pain management doctor. I have been with him for 15 years. He has

to be one of the most caring people I have ever met. I don`t think he ever took

more than an hour to call me back if I needed him. And whenever I couldn`t

handle the pain, he would bring me in and hook me up to meds until I could break

the cycle for awhile, All I had to do is ask him.

I wish I could send a clone of that Doctor to all of you who are in need of a

caring doctor. You would all be so happy. He never once gave you the feeling you

were just a complainer.

Well I took up enough of your time. I want to send you all my best wishes, and

hopes for a good day ahead. thanks for being here. Today, I will make an effort

to try and take it a little easy.