3 days after pump implacement

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Bennie, I think you might have mentioned that you were thinking of this option.

If I have the wrong person I`m sorry.

Just thought I would let you all know how things are going.

First of all I am bored to death! No biggie I guess, most of us are, since our

ability to do things is limited. Now though, I have to remember that even if I

feel good enough to sweep the floor I can`t, I don`t want to take a chance at

goofing anything up.

I don`t think the surgery itself is bothering me to much at all. Just that I`m

hating this stomache binder. I undersand why it is necessary to keep it on.

I have been feeling better pain wise already. I have to say that last night was

the first time in so very many years I can remember going to bed and getting up

to see the sun shining in my room. Sort of scary, to realize maybe that`s what

normal people do all the time. The thing is I didn`t want to crawl out of bed

and start a day with not much ahead of me to do.

I have spent more time at the computer. Actually making it through all of the

post. Although sometimes I know I am overdoing. I`m not one that can stand doing

nothing. I have to say, before I couldn`t even stand to sit at the computer

first thing in the morning.

Of course I am going to worry. I think most of us are worriers, what if this or

what if that, but some how I have to figure out how to get over that, and enjoy

living day by day instead of always looking ahead and expecting something to go

wrong,Do the rest of you find that hard to do to. Always expecting the worst.

All in all I do have high hopes that this will make a change in my life. Feeling

a little better, not noticing the pump inside of me very much, and where needle

is iserted in my spine doesn`t seem to be giving me a lot of problems. My fears

and worries about how the pump would feel when implanted were in vain as so many

of my worries are.

Chelsa, It`s okay to vent hear, we are all willing to listen , more so a lot

more than our friends and relatives, because we know where you are coming from.

Hopefully you will feel better about your life soon, and those awful thoughts

you get will be a thing of the past. I would be a liar of the highest degree if

I told you I have never felt that way. But I guess as everyone tells me, we need

to focus on the good things we do have going for us. Hard to find sometimes, but

they are there. Went on long enough, Thanks for istening everybody,