Much better today!

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Whatever that pain was it disappeared later on during the evening. I slept well

except for the pain I have in my hips and tailbone area. That just won't go

away..But nowhere near like it was when I used to wake up and couldn't stand to

walk or lay. Before the pump I could have never posted at this time of morning.

I agree with all of you, " Laughter " is the best, when I`m with Friends and we

are joking around and laughing I do so well. forget about nearly everything for

awhile. Laughing at home doesn't happen. I don't know what could make my hubby

laugh and joke around, 20 years and I haven't been able to do that with him.

Maybe he is so sorry he married me he gave all that fun stuff up when we got

married.

I would like to ask my daughters to go with me, but they already informed me

their lives are so busy. If I did get the youngest to go with me I know the

whole day would be filled with her financial problems, and me feeling guilty

because I couldn't help her. We've tried to tell her to try and sell the house

she shouldn't have bought in the first place and move home for awhile, think of

how much easier she would have it. She doesn't want to discuss that much less

know that I`m am not well. By ignoring me she doesn't have to know about my

illnesses. So I only hear from her if she needs money!

Kaylene, with you being so young, I hope you find a way to fill your life with

laughter and fun. Don't settle for an ho hum life of just sitting and waiting

for the day to pass and the next one to come.

I've done that for years, and I feel like I have wasted so many of my days. Try

not to let others pull away the enjoyment you might have. Oh what I would give

to able to be capable of leaving hubby sit at home in his recliner and going out

to have some fun. Maybe this summer I can do that a little.

Time to get dressed for my appointment for my CT. I wish I could convince them I

don't want to have to wait a week for the results. I'd like to see a doctor

sooner.

Sorry I took up so much time,

R.