Doing fine, No RSD,Doctor was wrong!

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It`s been quite awhile since I posted, but I have been reading. The

last time I posted a new doctor told me that he felt I had RSD,

instead of a rotator cuff injury.

My family doctor and pain specialist refused to go along with his thoughts. They

have known me for years and explained that if I truly had RSD I would not be

able to even have the range of motion in my arm that I do.

My pain specialist who treats RSD, said he wouldn`t even feel right about

treating me for this. Now over the length of a few weeks and a cortisone shot,

by shoulder has been doing just fine.

I`m thanking the Lord for this and going along with the two doctors who have

known me for years. I`m a coward and really couldn`t face any more to be wrong

with me.

My cancer surgery has healed well. The only time I feel poorly from

that is when I tend to overdo like so many of us do. Sometimes I let

myself wonder if it is coming back, but I push that to the side.

I know so many of you are going through so much more than I ever

have, I feel wrong venting, but I`m just so tired of waking up in the

morning feeling like I can handle the world and maybe a job.

Then I do something a little more than I should and I end up spending the rest

of the day in pain. But it seems everything causes me spine

pain.

I`m sure the degenrative disc problem, plus the fact that I fracture a vertabrae

easier than shelling a peanut, and that my heart can't take much doesn't help. I

read from all of you out there who

have fibro, as I do, and I wonder how you keep up your spirits.

I agree so much with all of you who feel an invisble illness is a

horrible thing to deal with. I get so tired of people saying, you

look so good, and smiling back when I really feel like crying. and I

feel so useless when it comes to trying to help us get out of the

financial bind we are in.

I think I can do something to help, get a job and work lots of hours and then I

realize that's foolish thinking. I'd end up getting sicker and just costing us

more money.

Am I right in thinking that there are many of you who are also in

financial binds. I don't want to be nosy, and I know very well I'm

not alone, but sometimes it`s just good to hear from others who are

going through the same thing.

I wish I could win the lottery and start handing out some money to all who need

a little help. I think I would start by going out and finding some of the

homeless on these cold nights and sending them to a motel.

I guess I've said enough for now, and my hurting is getting the best of me. Not

to hard to see what sort of a mood I'm in tonight is it.

If I could reach out and touch you all, I would give you a hug

and tell you all that I love you. Thank you so much for being out

there for all of us who need someone to go too.

Stay warm and feel loved,

R.