Feeling all alone!

[Guest guest]

I wish I could check into the hospital. My husband doesn't understand

my myriad of health problems and he thinks I am make them up. We have

no insurance and therefore no way to pay for therapy. Of course I was

in therapy a few years back and it did not help. My husband thinks I

can just snap out of it and only " weak " people let themselves get

depressed.

I must admit I have contemplated suicide. My husband has been out of

work for almost 4 years and we are dirt poor and we may lose our

house. We have no money for food or my migraine med and I just got

over a 2 day migraine. I also have Neurofibromatosis and fibromyalgia

along with many back problems. I have thought of taking a handful of

pain pills and just going to sleep forever. But I am religious and I

love my children and grandson (who is only 6 months old). If it

wasn't for them I would be long gone.

My husband blames all the problems all on me, even though I have been

disabled for 10 years and haven't been able to work. Now he sit

behind his computer all day and isn't even looking for a job. I have

applied for emergency bill money, food stamps and medicaid for us. I

am also in the process of applying for disability for the third time.

I feel like I am the only one who is making an effort. He says that

he is trying to make money in the stock market but all he has done is

lose all of our money and our retirement money. God help us if we

have to move in with his mother!

All I can do is sit and cry because I am in physical pain and I am

scared about our money situation.

Sorry about bumming you out in my first post but I just somehow knew

you all would understand.

Thanks for listening,

Sherry