Sorry I need to vent

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Today has been a day from hell

My 3rd son who is autistic knows he isn't

supposed to eat chocolate He stole a brownie & of course it made him sick All

night & morning so he vomited up his meds. I finally got him settled down.

So I

went to visit my dad who isn't doing good at all. He was in pain short of breath

& unable to walk to the potty.So I walked over to the nurse's station & told

them what was going on with him because he never tells them anything>He says he

doesn't want to disturb them they are too busy .They gave him his pain med, &

nebulizer. I made sure he was settled down.

I went out to dinner with my fourth

son( he is 18).It was our date night.( I have a date night with all of my sons

so they can discuss what ever they want to with my full attention)went shopping

with him & went home.

my mom called all nerved up & saying she can't take much

more.She said she was stressed to the max so I went over & got her calmed down

for the second time todayI came back home in severe pain just wanting to take my

pain pills.

I walk into the door & My third son ( he is 22)decided to take a

knife to his throat & yell he was going to commit suicide. I took him to the ER

to have his levels checked according to that he hadn't taken his meds for 3 days

at least.He was going through DTs.They got his levels up & it was late getting

home.

I hadn't had any pain meds up to this time.So needless to say I was in

severe pain basically crawling into the house I took my meds got my sons taken

care of.Hubby was wonderful & had food ready to eat

Called the nursing home to

check on Dad. Called my mom to make sure she was ok for the night.Then I made

sure 3rd son was all ready for bed & took his night pills.Now everyone is either

asleep finally or ready to go to sleep.

I had to deal with a lot before I could

even take care of me.I still am having a major problem sleeping in 5 days I have

had a total of 3 hours sleep. So I am stressed to the max & had to deal with all

these people All I want to do is cry.I wish Dad would die so he can stop

suffering, & that sounds horrid.Mom is stressed & taking it out on me because my

brothers are basically a waste of space.They keep arguing with us about dad's

final arrangements which dad told us what he wanted.They think dad should stay

at home & have nurses come in 24 hours a day but dad doesn't want this.So they

are on mom's case.As if she didn't have enough on her mind with her husband of

40 years dieing.Being Mom's oldest I am taking care of her & dad along with my

own family.

I really can't take much more.So I drank my bedtime tea.had my bath &

did my midnight rituals to bless my house & kids.

Now I'm just Wishing for peace & sleep .Sorry for the ranting. Blessed be

my sweet brothers & sisters

Blessed be,

Ms.Katurah

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Oh my! I hope things are better for you today.

*Suzi*

MsKaturah wrote:

> Today has been a day from hell