My Blood Pressure Won`t Go Down

[Guest guest]

I have been fighting for the last two weeks to try and get my blood pressure

even a little normal. Just no luck. Even with my blood pressure meds and muscle

relaxers it still stays way up.

My heart specialist tells me the pain doctor has to get rid of the pain before

it will come down, and my pain doctors tell me it is up to my heart specialist

to find something to bring it down. So, I sit in the middle.

I have been reading all the posts about the back surgeries so many of you have

had that haven`t done any good, and I feel so bad for you. I was happy when my

neurosurgeon, told me that another back surgery for me would only make matters

worse, and I wouldn't be able to bend at all. So I`m staying away from them.

It seems so weird that I can sit here and have very little pain. The implanted

pump has to be doing something for me. I wake up and make coffee first thing in

the morning, where I use to just sit on the bed and wonder how I was going to

get through the day.

Yesterday I went to town and picked up my meds. The pharmacist actually told me

it seemed strange to see me there and not my hubby. For years I would not drive

to town to get my meds, I told him, now I can do it myself.

I even stopped off at a friends house on the way home. I had not seen her in

over 4 years, and she was so happy I came. It was hard on me to see this woman

who used to be the picture of health, now looking very weak, and nearly

completely blind. But it was great the way we just picked up our friendships.

I read the post daily, just don`t take the time to post much. I really hope that

all of you can find some peace in your lives of pain and enjoy some of the

world. I know how hard it is, because I try daily to find that peace, but have a

hard time doing it myself. I let depression take to much of my time.

Now if I can only get that blood pressure down. Thanks for listening,

R.