Re: HELLO EVERYONE.....

[Guest guest]

Hi Tawny:

I know you have a tough battle each and every day. I wish it wasn't so.

I do know that it is hard to focus on anything when you are in awful

pain. I sure hope your Rheumy can help you so you can start to feel

better. I have been on Zoloft for about 9 years due to worrying etc. I

did have some short bouts of depression, but got through it. It seems

when we are down, we are really down, and it doesn't seem like we will

ever feel good again. But, with your drs. help and some meds, I think

you will begin to feel better. It's hard because it takes the meds. so

long to kick in. I know you are fearful about Diabete's, but hopefully

it will pass you by. It is hard to dust ourselves off, and go forward.

That is why I just take one day at a time, and sometimes minute by

minute.

I know my life is starting over at 69. I never thought my husband would

do what he did, and I find it hard to bear the loss of our 29 year

marriage. It has been so painful, and I wish things were different. He

wants to stop the divorce, and have me come home and go on with our

life. I can't do it. I can never trust him again, nor can I forgive

him right now. He was the love of my life, and he just about killed me

this year. I never want to go through all that pain and suffering. I

can't stand to even enter our home as it brings back such terrible

memories and all the pain he put me through. I didn't want the divorce,

and I wanted to see a marriage councelor. He didn't, and I can't save

our marriage by myself. I am not a quitter, but I had to let it all go.

He has broken my heart and caused me the most pain in my life.

I am so thankful my son was here, and then moved here. He was there for

me, and such a rock he was. I was so happy he asked me to move in with

him and his family. It is working out wonderfully for all of us, and we

truly love each other. Out of all that darkness, came this great light.

We love our new home, and our new life together. I thank God each and

everyday for my loving family, and my loving friends. That is what

matters much to me.

I am praying for you Tawny as I know you have so much to deal with. Try

to take it one day at a time, or minute by minute. You are much loved

here, and everyone really cares about you. You know how I feel about

you too. You are such a dear sweet pereson. I look forward to your

letters. Remember how much I care about you and your daily battle.

Much love to you Tawny.

Praying for you to be pain free so you can have a life again.

Many hugs,

Barbara

> >

> >

> > Hi Tawny:

> >

> > I have been reading all your posts, and I feel just awful that you

are

> > suffering so much. You have so much to deal with each day, I can see

> > why you are so overwhelmed. Daily pain is so wearing, that you can

> > hardly think straight. I hope you see your dr. very soon, tell your

> > Rheumy everthing, and I mean everything. Your Rheumy needs to hear

all

> > about what you are dealing with, plus being so depressed. Who can

> blame

> > you for being depressed? I have gone through times like that, and I

> > really thought I was losing my mind. We all have a maximum for our

> > endurance. You have reached yours. I know what it is like to feel so

> > alone and that no one understands or cares what you are dealing

with.

> I

> > know your family loves you, and it must be so tough on them to see

> what

> > you endure each day. Your dr. needs to be there for you, and find

the

> > right cocktail of pain meds for you so you can get through this bad

> > time.

> >

> > I have changed how I view things in my life now. I concentrate on

the

> > things I can do, not what I have given up. I lead a much more sedate

> > and quiet life. As you know I am going through a very painfull

> divorce.

> > I still can't believe what has been done to me, but I need to

survive

> so

> > I can have a life. I will probably always love the man I married,

but

> > he is gone. 29 years of marriage, just gone. He wants me to come

home

> > and just continue with life. I can't do it as I can't trust him, nor

> > can I forgive him. Maybe in time, I just don't know.

> >

> > I am living a very peaceful and happy life with my son and his

family.

> I

> > can feel the love from them to me, and that gives me such a good

> > feeling. I am loving our new home, and so happy to be home again. As

> > always, I am just taking one day at a time. I am thankful for my

> loving

> > family and loving friends. I am very rich in that area of my life. I

> > have many hobbies, so I look forward to when I can sit for awhile

and

> do

> > my folk art painting. I also do needlepoint, and will start that kit

> > soon. I also read everyday. I can't go, go, go anymore but that is

> > o.k. I take my time and go slowly. This is just another phase of my

> > life.

> >

> > I am so praying for you Tawny. I want you to feel better and be pain

> > free. Please take care and see your dr. soon. I care about you my

dear

> > friend. God Bless you always and in all ways. Many gentle hugs to

you.

> >

> > Barbara

>

[Guest guest]

Barbara,

You are a great friend to me, and never forget it. You are a

inspiration to this group, we need you so much. Thanks for the prayers,

they have helped. My leg is feeling a little better.

I called my rheumy office, to get in earlier, that is not going to

happen. My appointment is the 16th of this month. I will let my rheumy

know everything. My appointment is Friday at my primary doctor. The

nurse called with my lab work yesterday, and I was not very happy. I

asked the lab tech, if she was doing lab for diabetes. They do it

every time I do lab, she is new, so I wanted to make sure. Well, she

didn't!! So, I will have to fast once again. My cholesterol is still

high, so the doctor called me in a prescription, but I'm going to wait,

and talk with her. She had me on this med before, and I had leg cramps.

Also, my liver is in distress, so that worries me. This might be

another reason why I feel so bad. I will keep you posted on the

appointment Friday.

I will talk to her about the depression. I have been on every type of

those type of meds. I just wean off them usually, when life is going

normal for me. I hate taking so many meds, but I know this should be

one I stay on. I'm just scared of all the side effects.

I am so proud of you. You have been through so much, and your doing

great. You made it through a really rough time in your life. They say

things happen for a purpose, and I know this is one, a new beginning for

you.

Hope your feeling better, and you get stronger each day. Just know your

in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care,

Tawny

>

>

> Hi Tawny:

>

> I know you have a tough battle each and every day. I wish it wasn't

so.

> I do know that it is hard to focus on anything when you are in awful

> pain. I sure hope your Rheumy can help you so you can start to feel

> better. I have been on Zoloft for about 9 years due to worrying etc. I

> did have some short bouts of depression, but got through it. It seems

> when we are down, we are really down, and it doesn't seem like we will

> ever feel good again. But, with your drs. help and some meds, I think

> you will begin to feel better. It's hard because it takes the meds. so

> long to kick in. I know you are fearful about Diabete's, but hopefully

> it will pass you by. It is hard to dust ourselves off, and go forward.

> That is why I just take one day at a time, and sometimes minute by

> minute.

>

> I know my life is starting over at 69. I never thought my husband

would

> do what he did, and I find it hard to bear the loss of our 29 year

> marriage. It has been so painful, and I wish things were different. He

> wants to stop the divorce, and have me come home and go on with our

> life. I can't do it. I can never trust him again, nor can I forgive

> him right now. He was the love of my life, and he just about killed me

> this year. I never want to go through all that pain and suffering. I

> can't stand to even enter our home as it brings back such terrible

> memories and all the pain he put me through. I didn't want the

divorce,

> and I wanted to see a marriage councelor. He didn't, and I can't save

> our marriage by myself. I am not a quitter, but I had to let it all

go.

> He has broken my heart and caused me the most pain in my life.

>

> I am so thankful my son was here, and then moved here. He was there

for

> me, and such a rock he was. I was so happy he asked me to move in with

> him and his family. It is working out wonderfully for all of us, and

we

> truly love each other. Out of all that darkness, came this great

light.

> We love our new home, and our new life together. I thank God each and

> everyday for my loving family, and my loving friends. That is what

> matters much to me.

>

> I am praying for you Tawny as I know you have so much to deal with.

Try

> to take it one day at a time, or minute by minute. You are much loved

> here, and everyone really cares about you. You know how I feel about

> you too. You are such a dear sweet pereson. I look forward to your

> letters. Remember how much I care about you and your daily battle.

> Much love to you Tawny.

>

> Praying for you to be pain free so you can have a life again.

>

> Many hugs,

>

> Barbara

[Guest guest]

Hi Tawny:

I know what you mean about taking more meds. For years I only took 2

meds., now I am up to 12!!! But every pill I take is important to my

well being. Such is life.

I am glad your leg is feeling better. I hope it continues for you.

Glad you see your dr. Fri. I hope he has some answers for you, plus

some new meds. for your pain and suffering. I feel better knowing that

you are going to discuss your depression with him. I am sure he can get

you some help with it.

I am feeling better and better each day, and my knee is pain free. I am

happy about that!! The P.T. is also going good. I see my surgeon on

the 22nd, and will find out when I can drive, etc. Right now I am just

taking things slow and easy. I do my exercises each day, then just rest

my knee. It's good I love t.v. and love to read.

I hope you have a good night, and still pray for you Tawny that you will

be pain free soon.

Hugs,

Barbara

> >

> >

> > Hi Tawny:

> >

> > I know you have a tough battle each and every day. I wish it wasn't

> so.

> > I do know that it is hard to focus on anything when you are in awful

> > pain. I sure hope your Rheumy can help you so you can start to feel

> > better. I have been on Zoloft for about 9 years due to worrying etc.

I

> > did have some short bouts of depression, but got through it. It

seems

> > when we are down, we are really down, and it doesn't seem like we

will

> > ever feel good again. But, with your drs. help and some meds, I

think

> > you will begin to feel better. It's hard because it takes the meds.

so

> > long to kick in. I know you are fearful about Diabete's, but

hopefully

> > it will pass you by. It is hard to dust ourselves off, and go

forward.

> > That is why I just take one day at a time, and sometimes minute by

> > minute.

> >

> > I know my life is starting over at 69. I never thought my husband

> would

> > do what he did, and I find it hard to bear the loss of our 29 year

> > marriage. It has been so painful, and I wish things were different.

He

> > wants to stop the divorce, and have me come home and go on with our

> > life. I can't do it. I can never trust him again, nor can I forgive

> > him right now. He was the love of my life, and he just about killed

me

> > this year. I never want to go through all that pain and suffering. I

> > can't stand to even enter our home as it brings back such terrible

> > memories and all the pain he put me through. I didn't want the

> divorce,

> > and I wanted to see a marriage councelor. He didn't, and I can't

save

> > our marriage by myself. I am not a quitter, but I had to let it all

> go.

> > He has broken my heart and caused me the most pain in my life.

> >

> > I am so thankful my son was here, and then moved here. He was there

> for

> > me, and such a rock he was. I was so happy he asked me to move in

with

> > him and his family. It is working out wonderfully for all of us, and

> we

> > truly love each other. Out of all that darkness, came this great

> light.

> > We love our new home, and our new life together. I thank God each

and

> > everyday for my loving family, and my loving friends. That is what

> > matters much to me.

> >

> > I am praying for you Tawny as I know you have so much to deal with.

> Try

> > to take it one day at a time, or minute by minute. You are much

loved

> > here, and everyone really cares about you. You know how I feel about

> > you too. You are such a dear sweet pereson. I look forward to your

> > letters. Remember how much I care about you and your daily battle.

> > Much love to you Tawny.

> >

> > Praying for you to be pain free so you can have a life again.

> >

> > Many hugs,

> >

> > Barbara

>

[Guest guest]

Barbara,

I am glad your feeling better, and your knee is doing great. I always

like to hear, " positive, " stories. " I'm sure you will get to drive

soon, I know your ready to get out.

You and me both, liking TV! I like TV a little too much, but not much

else to do. I like to read too. I'm trying to write a little, working

on a book, hoping one day it can be published.

I am going to get my hair colored and cut tomorrow, way over do. At

least, I will look better,lol This disease really takes its toll on our

whole body, including hair. I have a lot of breakage, the meds are

really messing with my hair right now.

I hope you have a lovely evening. You just take it slow, I know its not

easy, when your able to get around better.

Take care, my friend,

Tawny

[Guest guest]

Hi Tawny:

I hope your hair came out good. That should give you a positive lift.

M hair is baby fine, and getting very thin. The MTX is the culpert. I

wear it cut very, very, short, and my hairdresser came today to trim it

for me. I wasn't blessed with good hair, but do the best I can with it.

I am hopeful that you had a better day today. I know you see your dr.

tomorrow, and hope it is a good appt. for you. I hope he really listens

to you and all your health issues. He should be able to give you some

relief in many areas. Good luck.

I feel good today, just tired. Tonight is my MTX inject. so that should

help some for a few days.

I don't see my Rheumy until I get the o.k. to drive. I do need blood

work also, but that will have to wait too.

Wishing you pain free days ahead, and that you get the help with your

depression. I know things will work out better for you soon.

Always in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,

Barbara

>

[Guest guest]

Barbara,

I'm tired, but my hair looks good. We were there seven hours:( My

daughter got her hair cut, which didn't take long. I have very thick

hair. My stylist is too good to me. She knows how damaged my hair is,

so she pampers it.

I will talk over lots with my doctor. I need to find out what is

causing the leg pain. I just need to rule a few things out. I will let

you know how it goes.

Get some extra rest, your body so needs it to recover. I'm glad your RA

isn't acting up right now. You have a wonderful sleep, and know your in

my prayers my friend.

Gentle hug, dear friend,

Tawny

>

>

> Hi Tawny:

>

> I hope your hair came out good. That should give you a positive lift.

> M hair is baby fine, and getting very thin. The MTX is the culpert. I

> wear it cut very, very, short, and my hairdresser came today to trim

it

> for me. I wasn't blessed with good hair, but do the best I can with

it.

>

> I am hopeful that you had a better day today. I know you see your dr.

> tomorrow, and hope it is a good appt. for you. I hope he really

listens

> to you and all your health issues. He should be able to give you some

> relief in many areas. Good luck.

>

> I feel good today, just tired. Tonight is my MTX inject. so that

should

> help some for a few days.

>

> I don't see my Rheumy until I get the o.k. to drive. I do need blood

> work also, but that will have to wait too.

>

> Wishing you pain free days ahead, and that you get the help with your

> depression. I know things will work out better for you soon.

>

> Always in my thoughts and prayers.

>

> Hugs,

>

> Barbara