Re: Re: What a way to start the New Year

[Guest guest]

My Dearest Friends.....

Wednesday I received one of the saddest phone calls that I have ever rcvd. My

PCP had passed away at age of 62.. She had told us ( & me) that she was

going in for a hysterectomy just before Thanksgiving. We all joked about it. I

think it came as a bigger shock to the doc and her twins (whom I had met). I

can't imagine what they are going through.

..

This was the doc who told me that she had not given up on me when I was at my

sickest. I told her that I didn't know how many more miracles for me in her

medical bag & she assured me that she still had more than many with my name on

it. She pulled me out of all those infections that were thought to be caused by

Remicade. She was also managing my pain control. She always told me how it

was......good, bad, indifferent.

Right now, I feel that I am fighting the battle for my life. I keep thinking of

things that I have to remember to tell my dr. and then I remember that there is

no one there for me. She was also the ONLY one would could get me to do things

that needed to be done & I felt not so much....such as endoscopy, colonscopy,

etc.

Please pray for my dr's family (they are young people, who must feel so lost.

Thank you for listening to me, right now I feel that there is truly no one

watching my back which I feel is the key to me still being with my family. Shame

on me, I also feel so selfish.....so I hope this passes.

Please dear friends hug and cherish your loved ones, they are the best medicine

in the world! I love you all so much.

Oh, we do have wonderful news.......My grandson is being christened tomorrow

1-19-11 (still hard to write that 2011.....LOL). My two other daughters will be

sponsors for little Noah Canaan. He is the sweetest, quietest (s?) gentlest

little boy I have seen in a long time (of course I am bias!! His personality is

the exact opposite from his sister, Madyson . Tomorrow, Noah is going to

wearing the christening gown that one of my Dad's customers (Dad was a meat

cutter) that was made for me many moons ago. Well, my sister, my 3 daughters

wore it, my sister;s daughter wore it, Madyson wore it and finally my Noah is

going to wear it over a pair of black pants. My daughter will be having a small

dinner after church services, but I don't know if I am

quite up to visiting and celebrating after the week that I have had.

Gentle, tender angels across the miles.........................

Love,

Debs in FLA

[Guest guest]

Hi Debs.

 

You have been on my mind all week.  I think of you a lot and how far you have

come since we met here.

 

I know the loss of your Dr. and what it means to you beside sadness.  I lost

the most wonderful, caring and loving Pediatrician who took wonderful care of my

babies.  He dedicated his life to his " kids " .  His sister was his RN in

his practice.  The day he died I got so many calls from everyone the day he

died. Everyone knew how much I loved him and what a marvelous Dr. he was.  My

daughter was born so sickly and a fail to thrive child.  We never thought she

would see her 5th birthday.  He sent me to the best Drs. in Boston, and the

Chief of Allergy at Childrens Hospital in Boston.  They had never seen a child

so sickly before, and didn't think she would see her 5th birthday either. 

Between her wonderful Pediatrician, and the other 2 Drs. she did live, and is

now 42 years old.  She is fragile to say the least, but doing well within all

her restraints.  I mourned my beloved Pediatrician for a long time.  He always

told me that if anything

happened to him to see this other Pediatricain whom I did not like.  He

said, " Barbara, I know you don't like him, but needs a good Dr. "   I said I

know but I only want you.  God, I loved him so much.  He had that special gift

you rarely see in a Dr.  His wake and funeral was the hardest one I had ever

gone to.  I knew his wife and all their kids.  His staff and sister all said

to me, " Barbara, our boy is gone and I know how much you loved him, and how much

you will miss him. "   Miss him I sure did.  He was only 60!  When I think of

him still and what a wonderful Dr. he was, I still cry with that loss.  He so

loved all children, and was so close to my little girl.  He called her " His

little Dolly " .  My heart broke for his wife and all their children.  So Debs,

I know exactly what you are feeling and the loss you have suffered.  It has

been all those years ago, and I still feel the loss.  I hope and pray that you

can finally find

another Dr. who will take an interest in you and your well being.  I know how

awful your life was before with all your infections, hospital stay's, and long

recuperations.  I am always here for you as you well know.  I care about you

and want you to continue staying as well as you can.  I know how sad you are

and I know it hurts so much.  I am sure she knew how much you loved her and was

so thankful of her taking good care of you.  You have a challenge before you,

and just don;t give up on yourself.  You have come so far Debs.  I will be

praying for you to find a good, caring Dr.  There are Drs. out there ready to

be found.  I am so sorry for your terrible loss.

 

I now think I better think about driving to your house soon.  We both need the

Cabana boys to take care of us.  Don't you agree with me?

 

My love, thoughts and prayers are with you now.  You also know how wonderful

our group is, and they are all here for you too.  God Bless you Debs.

 

I feel your Dr. has one more miracle for you.  She wants you to dust yourself

off, and go out and find another Dr. who will give you the care you need.  I

truly believe this.

 

I remember what your daughter went through to get Noah, and prayed that he would

survive it all.  Miracles do happen.  How wonderful you have that Christening

outfit and it has now become an heirloom for your family.  I am sure he will

look so beautiful tomorrow.  Give him an angel kiss from me.

 

Much love and big hugs too,

 

Your friend,  Barbara

 

[Guest guest]

Debs in FLA, Sorry to hear about the death of your doctor. I will pray for her

family and for you. Jesus left us a comforter and I will pray that he comforts

all including you. Vivian in LA

[Guest guest]

Debs,

I'm so very sorry that you lost your beloved doctor. I know that she

has been through a lot with you, and became very dear to you.

Hopefully you can find another doctor that you will grow to love as

much as you did her. I will keep her family in my thoughts and

prayers. She was so young to be taken away from them.

It's so nice that you have some good news as well. Congratulations on

your grandson and his christening. What a treasure to have your

christening gown for him to wear. It's remarkable that it's still in

good condition. You should have it framed to preserve it forever.

Grandchildren are indeed grand. We just had Chrismas this weekend with

our son and four kids. His baby , born in September, was in the

hospital with RSV for six days over Christmas. This was after his

wife, only 39 years old, had a heart attack the day after

Thanksgiving. We had a very nice weekend with them, and they're all

reasonably well for the moment.

I'm sending positive thoughts and many hugs your way.

Sue

On Jan 15, 2011, at 12:17 PM, Badkneesdebs wrote:

>

> My Dearest Friends.....

> Wednesday I received one of the saddest phone calls that I have ever

> rcvd. My PCP had passed away at age of 62.. She had told us ( &

> me) that she was going in for a hysterectomy just before

> Thanksgiving. We all joked about it. I think it came as a bigger

> shock to the doc and her twins (whom I had met). I can't imagine

> what they are going through.

> .

> This was the doc who told me that she had not given up on me when I

> was at my sickest. I told her that I didn't know how many more

> miracles for me in her medical bag & she assured me that she still

> had more than many with my name on it. She pulled me out of all

> those infections that were thought to be caused by Remicade. She was

> also managing my pain control. She always told me how it

> was......good, bad, indifferent.

> Right now, I feel that I am fighting the battle for my life. I keep

> thinking of things that I have to remember to tell my dr. and then I

> remember that there is no one there for me. She was also the ONLY

> one would could get me to do things that needed to be done & I felt

> not so much....such as endoscopy, colonscopy, etc.

> Please pray for my dr's family (they are young people, who must feel

> so lost. Thank you for listening to me, right now I feel that there

> is truly no one watching my back which I feel is the key to me still

> being with my family. Shame on me, I also feel so selfish.....so I

> hope this passes.

> Please dear friends hug and cherish your loved ones, they are the

> best medicine in the world! I love you all so much.

> Oh, we do have wonderful news.......My grandson is being christened

> tomorrow 1-19-11 (still hard to write that 2011.....LOL). My two

> other daughters will be sponsors for little Noah Canaan. He is the

> sweetest, quietest (s?) gentlest little boy I have seen in a long

> time (of course I am bias!! His personality is the exact opposite

> from his sister, Madyson . Tomorrow, Noah is going to wearing

> the christening gown that one of my Dad's customers (Dad was a meat

> cutter) that was made for me many moons ago. Well, my sister, my 3

> daughters wore it, my sister;s daughter wore it, Madyson wore it and

> finally my Noah is going to wear it over a pair of black pants. My

> daughter will be having a small dinner after church services, but I

> don't know if I am

> quite up to visiting and celebrating after the week that I have had.

> Gentle, tender angels across the miles.........................

> Love,

> Debs in FLA

>

[Guest guest]

Vivian......

Thank you so much for the prayers and good wishes. I have an appt for Monday

with my dr.s' associate. I have seen her once before when my dr was taking time

off. It is like starting over with a new dr. I am sure that it will be OK.

Gentle, tender angel hugs.....

Debs in FL

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Debs in FLA, Sorry to hear about the death of your doctor. I will pray for her

family and for you. Jesus left us a comforter and I will pray that he comforts

all including you. Vivian in LA

[Guest guest]

Good Evening My Dear Friend.......

Thank you for your kind words and prayers. My drs' passing came as such a

shock, I had been at the office for Rx refills and saw her PA and I asked her

how she was doing and she said that she was doing very well, I also asked her

nurse also and got the same response. I understand that this was a private

matter.....but yikes what a shock! I have an appt with one of her associates,

but it will not be the same and being in the office without my dr lurking around

will be strange. After my Dad passed away, I never went home again until my

Mom was dying of cancer.

I guess I tend to ignore things that are not pleasant. But it is now time to

put on my big girl panties and just do what I have to do and give this associate

a chance. The whole thing can be best summed up like my dr. was like a comfy

bedroom slipper and her associate is a brand new pump that you have to get used

to!

My grandson's baptism was beautul. We had a lovely dinner at a local

restaurant. The little guy had had a rough week because he had a cold, but

Sunday he was a real trouper. When my granddaughter was baptised, I gave her

the cross necklace that I had worn when I was baptized, confirmed and at my

wedding.

I could not figure out what to do for Noah, then I rememberd that my Dad had

given my Mom an ankle bracelet with the German word for " small one " and I knew

what would be perfect for my Noah, so I pinned the tiny word plate on the

inside of his gown. The whole day could not have gone any better.

Anytime the wheels of your car bring you down to south FL, me and " my boys " are

waiting with a full tray of Margueritas! My youngest daughter is trying her

skills at bar tending, well I am only too willing to be a happy tester for her

" mistakes " . Oh, the motto at my house is that " Laughter is the Best Medicine " .

My daughter, , reminds me that it has been over a year since I was in the

hospital for an infection and maybe I am over the worst of it. Right now I am

battling my blood disorder. My hemoglobin is 7.5 and I got an iron transfusion

and my blood count barely came up. My hematologist gave me another transfusion

on Monday, but I still very weak, dizzy and light headed. I hope that this

second transfusion helps. They know that I am bleeding " somewhere " in my

abdomen,but they can't find it. I guess it is like trying to find that elusive

noise in your car that only you can hear!

I hope that the " Hump Day " aka Wednesday finds you relatively pain free and

enjoying friends and family.

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and thoughtfulness. It is also

so good to know that I have such a good friend that is just a post away!

Have a wonderful painfree evening. I have to see what the " bar " here is serving

tonight! I love you my dear friend, be well!

Gentle, tender angel hugs.......

Debs

Re: [ ] Re: What a way to start the New Year

Hi Debs.

You have been on my mind all week. I think of you a lot and how far you have

come since we met here.

I know the loss of your Dr. and what it means to you beside sadness. I lost the

most wonderful, caring and loving Pediatrician who took wonderful care of my

babies. He dedicated his life to his " kids " . His sister was his RN in his

practice. The day he died I got so many calls from everyone the day he died.

Everyone knew how much I loved him and what a marvelous Dr. he was. My daughter

was born so sickly and a fail to thrive child. We never thought she would see

her 5th birthday. He sent me to the best Drs. in Boston, and the Chief of

Allergy at Childrens Hospital in Boston. They had never seen a child so sickly

before, and didn't think she would see her 5th birthday either. Between her

wonderful Pediatrician, and the other 2 Drs. she did live, and is now 42 years

old. She is fragile to say the least, but doing well within all her restraints.

I mourned my beloved Pediatrician for a long time. He always told me that if

anything

happened to him to see this other Pediatricain whom I did not like. He

said, " Barbara, I know you don't like him, but needs a good Dr. " I said I

know but I only want you. God, I loved him so much. He had that special gift

you rarely see in a Dr. His wake and funeral was the hardest one I had ever

gone to. I knew his wife and all their kids. His staff and sister all said to

me, " Barbara, our boy is gone and I know how much you loved him, and how much

you will miss him. " Miss him I sure did. He was only 60! When I think of him

still and what a wonderful Dr. he was, I still cry with that loss. He so loved

all children, and was so close to my little girl. He called her " His little

Dolly " . My heart broke for his wife and all their children. So Debs, I know

exactly what you are feeling and the loss you have suffered. It has been all

those years ago, and I still feel the loss. I hope and pray that you can

finally find

another Dr. who will take an interest in you and your well being. I know how

awful your life was before with all your infections, hospital stay's, and long

recuperations. I am always here for you as you well know. I care about you and

want you to continue staying as well as you can. I know how sad you are and I

know it hurts so much. I am sure she knew how much you loved her and was so

thankful of her taking good care of you. You have a challenge before you, and

just don;t give up on yourself. You have come so far Debs. I will be praying

for you to find a good, caring Dr. There are Drs. out there ready to be found.

I am so sorry for your terrible loss.

I now think I better think about driving to your house soon. We both need the

Cabana boys to take care of us. Don't you agree with me?

My love, thoughts and prayers are with you now. You also know how wonderful our

group is, and they are all here for you too. God Bless you Debs.

I feel your Dr. has one more miracle for you. She wants you to dust yourself

off, and go out and find another Dr. who will give you the care you need. I

truly believe this.

I remember what your daughter went through to get Noah, and prayed that he would

survive it all. Miracles do happen. How wonderful you have that Christening

outfit and it has now become an heirloom for your family. I am sure he will

look so beautiful tomorrow. Give him an angel kiss from me.

Much love and big hugs too,

Your friend, Barbara

[Guest guest]

Oh Sue such sad news about your son's wife and daughter. Both of my grandbabies

were in the NICU for 4 weeks and Noah had a cold all last week. He didn't

tolerate it too well, but thank God he is over it and doing OK for right now.

Grandchildren are the icing on a cake in life. They are so sweet and all that

new life you just want to drink in.

Thanki you for your thoughts and prayers for my late dr. I try no to think of

myself too much. She had a set of twins who were only in their 20s. I have an

appt with my drs associate on Monday. I have seen her once before and she is

very nice. It is just like you tend to think of your dr as a comfy bed slipper

and now I have to break in a new pair of pumps!

Gentle, tender angel hugs.....

Debs in FL

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Debs,

I'm so very sorry that you lost your beloved doctor. I know that she

has been through a lot with you, and became very dear to you.

Hopefully you can find another doctor that you will grow to love as

much as you did her. I will keep her family in my thoughts and

prayers. She was so young to be taken away from them.

It's so nice that you have some good news as well. Congratulations on

your grandson and his christening. What a treasure to have your

christening gown for him to wear. It's remarkable that it's still in

good condition. You should have it framed to preserve it forever.

Grandchildren are indeed grand. We just had Chrismas this weekend with

our son and four kids. His baby , born in September, was in the

hospital with RSV for six days over Christmas. This was after his

wife, only 39 years old, had a heart attack the day after

Thanksgiving. We had a very nice weekend with them, and they're all

reasonably well for the moment.

I'm sending positive thoughts and many hugs your way.

Sue

On Jan 15, 2011, at 12:17 PM, Badkneesdebs wrote:

>

> My Dearest Friends.....

> Wednesday I received one of the saddest phone calls that I have ever

> rcvd. My PCP had passed away at age of 62.. She had told us ( &

> me) that she was going in for a hysterectomy just before

> Thanksgiving. We all joked about it. I think it came as a bigger

> shock to the doc and her twins (whom I had met). I can't imagine

> what they are going through.

> .

> This was the doc who told me that she had not given up on me when I

> was at my sickest. I told her that I didn't know how many more

> miracles for me in her medical bag & she assured me that she still

> had more than many with my name on it. She pulled me out of all

> those infections that were thought to be caused by Remicade. She was

> also managing my pain control. She always told me how it

> was......good, bad, indifferent.

> Right now, I feel that I am fighting the battle for my life. I keep

> thinking of things that I have to remember to tell my dr. and then I

> remember that there is no one there for me. She was also the ONLY

> one would could get me to do things that needed to be done & I felt

> not so much....such as endoscopy, colonscopy, etc.

> Please pray for my dr's family (they are young people, who must feel

> so lost. Thank you for listening to me, right now I feel that there

> is truly no one watching my back which I feel is the key to me still

> being with my family. Shame on me, I also feel so selfish.....so I

> hope this passes.

> Please dear friends hug and cherish your loved ones, they are the

> best medicine in the world! I love you all so much.

> Oh, we do have wonderful news.......My grandson is being christened

> tomorrow 1-19-11 (still hard to write that 2011.....LOL). My two

> other daughters will be sponsors for little Noah Canaan. He is the

> sweetest, quietest (s?) gentlest little boy I have seen in a long

> time (of course I am bias!! His personality is the exact opposite

> from his sister, Madyson . Tomorrow, Noah is going to wearing

> the christening gown that one of my Dad's customers (Dad was a meat

> cutter) that was made for me many moons ago. Well, my sister, my 3

> daughters wore it, my sister;s daughter wore it, Madyson wore it and

> finally my Noah is going to wear it over a pair of black pants. My

> daughter will be having a small dinner after church services, but I

> don't know if I am

> quite up to visiting and celebrating after the week that I have had.

> Gentle, tender angels across the miles.........................

> Love,

> Debs in FLA

>

[Guest guest]

Hi to you my dear sweet friend.

 

It is always so nice to talk with you.  That year has really gone by fast.  So

wonderful for you not to have anymore of those awful infections.  I know how

much you suffered with them and each trip to the ER and hospital stay.  I am

happy you have gone this length of time and are feeling so much better.  You so

deserve a break from all that and it is finally behind you.  It has been a long

time coming into better health and feeling good.  I too dred being sick with

anything.  Hard to get over each time I get sick.  Our bodies work so hard

fighting our RA.

 

I know how it is to get those blood transfusions.  I have had 3 since geting RA

6 years ago.  I had great blood up to that point.  And of course too

many bouts with Pneumonia.  My immune system stinks.  I am taking Iron again

and will have my blood work this week for my PCP and rheumy.

 

I love that you put that wonderful pin on Noah for his Christening.  Your

father and mother would have loved it.  I was sorry to read that he had been

sick too.  Premmies do thrive once they get some weight on.  I was born when

my mother just started her 7th month.  I weighed 2lb. 4oz. and went down to 1 

1/2 lbs.  Back in 1940 it was a miracle I survived.  I am sure Noah will grow

up to be a big boy and thrive along the way.  Nice to have a baby in our

lives.  I don't see many on this side of Florida, mostly seniors here.

 

How nice you are trying out  different drinks each night.  How is she doing

making drinks?  Nice she practices on you.

 

Oh boy, I hope my wheels go your way so we can have the Cabana boys take care of

us, run drinks to us, wait on us hand and foot.  Really pamper us!!!!  What a

absolute treat for us Debs. I could use some serious pampering!!! Oh for them to

help us in and out of your pool.  Heaven!

We might as well dream big!!!  ha ha ha

 

I hope your Rheumy visit goes well for you.  I know how hard it  is for you to

walk into the practice.  I wish you good luck and I hope she is a good, caring

Rheumy for you.

 

Are you getting good weather on your side?  Yesterday was 72 and today was 78,

balmy and sunny.  I am loving it.  I can't wait to get into my pool.  I hope

my son makes the solar system to heat the pool.  Then I could use it every day

no matter what the temp is outside.

 

You take good care of yourself Debs.  I hope your transfusions begin to perk

you up and not feel so tired.

 

You are always in my thoughts and prayers.  I wish you better health each day,

and to be pain free.  You are such a great person and friend.  Always happy to

talk with you.

 

Love and big hugs,

 

Barbara