usage of key words

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Key words:Education,hurt,pain,family,people,disease,disability,

advice,women,men,children.

My key word today is family. I think I could surely use pain as

well. I did not sleep well last night and was in extreme pain more

that ususal when I got up. It has not gotten any better. Today is

my sons, , birthday. He would be 16. But sad to say he passed

away when he was 2. This seems to be more difficult than usual. We

are in a fairly new location and I do not know very many people. I

feel so alone. My husband is very supportive as well as my

children. But, they have to deal with this as well. I have decided

to make cupcakes for my daughters class today. I am about to cut my

time out. I am basically trying to stay busy. This is not always

easy. I get very tired and have to rest, then the mind takes over.

A lot of people say very stupid and rather hurtful things. Just a

couple of Sundays ago in church, one of my Sunday School teachers

made a comment that made me want to get up and walk out. Something

was said about children, then someone said you never know how long

you have them. Then she said " yeah you screw up and God scoops down

and takes them away " . This made me feel like she was saying that I

screwed up and of course she did not because her children are all

still here. This really upset me. I am trying very hard to deal

with all of this but it seems to be just piling up. I better go make

cupcakes now or I will not get them done before lunch.

Thank you for listening and being here

Susie