been a long time since I've wrote anything

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I was on orencia which started out great but after 6 months fizzled out on me

and left me in horrible pain. I started on Remicade this month and have another

infusion in a few weeks. I'm still in horrible pain was told it would take

about 2 to 3 infusions to get it in my system. In the meantime taking tramadol

to fight the pain off.

I lost my job on the 18th due to the horrible pain and due to the fact that they

said I abused someone which I didn't. Anyway, I still have my insurance but

don't know for how long, I have called unemployment, went to social services and

have started asking my docs for copies of all my records so I can apply for

SSDI. My hands are the worst and it feels like my ankles are going to fall off

most days.

At the beginning of march since I knew my condition wasn't getting any better, I

moved from my apartment which I could no longer afford since the guy I was

dating and living with moved out. I moved in with my exhusband and his wife,

her brother and my 2 kids. I have found climbing 2 flights of steps to go use

the damn restroom is a pain in the arse.

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