This is what it's all about for me

[Guest guest]

The past three days have been miserable for me, and I'm showing it. I'm being miserable right back. I'm snapping at people, not sleeping well, and using food as my medication.

However, these three miserable days are not like other miserable days I've had in the past... because I know they will end when I make a choice to end them.

I'm a schedule oriented person. It's how I "roll" and the last four days have been anything but scheduled for me. We've been camping and the weather has been miserable, and I got sick and took a day off work... and needless to say... I have no concept right now of what a schedule is. I'm tired, angry, lonely and in general... not a happy person.

But at the same time... I'm thrilled. These past few days have made me believe in IE more and more. Instead of beating myself up over every single thing I've put in my mouth... I've simply just gone with it. I know what choices I'm making and for once I actually know why I'm making them. I'm making them to fill the voids that I'm feeling that I don't feel comfortable reaching out to people for right now. For instance... I hate being sick and single. I hate not having someone to comfort me... so of course... food can comfort me, and I've let it. I'm not starting an argument with myself over if it's right or wrong... I'm simply accepting it as the action that I'm taking and moving on.

Like just now... I was reaching my breaking point... I've yelled at my kids, yelled at the dog... and was munching on cheetos... to hear and feel the crunch. But something in me was wise enough to say... "maybe you should go write to the group... get some of these feelings out..." And I just proceeded to dump the bowl of cheetos. (don't get too excited... I made a nice dent in it before I dumped it... lol)

I'm learning myself through this process and learning that sometimes I need an outlet. I don't have that outlet in person yet, because I'm rebuilding my base of friends... but what I have learned so far is that I'm beginning to get learn what my triggers are, and how to cope with them.

I wanted to write this email to show newbies that there are always going to be good days and not so good days. A week ago I wrote an email crowing about dropping thirty pounds... That was a good day... This is a not so good day. And that's okay.

In fact it's more than okay... it's the start of a normal relationship with food... and I couldn't be more thrilled.

Amy

Let me run away with your money! Please help me raise $5000 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by training for and running the Nike Women's Half Marathon!Visit: http://pages.teamintraining.org/uny/nikesf08/ahayes to donate! Every dollar helps!

[Guest guest]

I love your post Amy - such wisdom you are finding for yourself. Your

mention of feeling lousy due to changes reminded me of a suggestion

made in a '12 step' type group to HALT when you are

HungryAngryLonelyTired. Its really hard to do but of the benefits of

discovery when you do Happy to read that you are staying on your IE

journey even when there are bumps in the road you are walking.

Take care - Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> The past three days have been miserable for me, and I'm showing it.

I'm being miserable right back. I'm snapping at people, not sleeping

well, and using food as my medication.

> However, these three miserable days are not like other miserable

days I've had in the past... because I know they will end when I make

a choice to end them.

> I'm a schedule oriented person. It's how I " roll " and the last

four days have been anything but scheduled for me. We've been camping

and the weather has been miserable, and I got sick and took a day off

work... and needless to say... I have no concept right now of what a

schedule is. I'm tired, angry, lonely and in general... not a happy

person.

> But at the same time... I'm thrilled. These past few days have made

me believe in IE more and more. Instead of beating myself up over

every single thing I've put in my mouth... I've simply just gone with

it. I know what choices I'm making and for once I actually know why

I'm making them. I'm making them to fill the voids that I'm feeling

that I don't feel comfortable reaching out to people for right now.

For instance... I hate being sick and single. I hate not having

someone to comfort me... so of course... food can comfort me, and I've

let it. I'm not starting an argument with myself over if it's right

or wrong... I'm simply accepting it as the action that I'm taking and

moving on.

> Like just now... I was reaching my breaking point... I've yelled at

my kids, yelled at the dog... and was munching on cheetos... to hear

and feel the crunch. But something in me was wise enough to say...

" maybe you should go write to the group... get some of these feelings

out... " And I just proceeded to dump the bowl of cheetos. (don't get

too excited... I made a nice dent in it before I dumped it... lol)

> I'm learning myself through this process and learning that sometimes

I need an outlet. I don't have that outlet in person yet, because I'm

rebuilding my base of friends... but what I have learned so far is

that I'm beginning to get learn what my triggers are, and how to cope

with them.

> I wanted to write this email to show newbies that there are always

going to be good days and not so good days. A week ago I wrote an

email crowing about dropping thirty pounds... That was a good day...

This is a not so good day. And that's okay.

> In fact it's more than okay... it's the start of a normal

relationship with food... and I couldn't be more thrilled.

>

>

> Amy

>

> Let me run away with your money! Please help me raise $5000 for the

Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by training for and running the Nike

Women's Half Marathon!

> Visit:http://pages.teamintraining.org/uny/nikesf08/ahayes to

donate! Every dollar helps!

>

[Guest guest]

I love your post Amy - such wisdom you are finding for yourself. Your

mention of feeling lousy due to changes reminded me of a suggestion

made in a '12 step' type group to HALT when you are

HungryAngryLonelyTired. Its really hard to do but of the benefits of

discovery when you do Happy to read that you are staying on your IE

journey even when there are bumps in the road you are walking.

Take care - Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> The past three days have been miserable for me, and I'm showing it.

I'm being miserable right back. I'm snapping at people, not sleeping

well, and using food as my medication.

> However, these three miserable days are not like other miserable

days I've had in the past... because I know they will end when I make

a choice to end them.

> I'm a schedule oriented person. It's how I " roll " and the last

four days have been anything but scheduled for me. We've been camping

and the weather has been miserable, and I got sick and took a day off

work... and needless to say... I have no concept right now of what a

schedule is. I'm tired, angry, lonely and in general... not a happy

person.

> But at the same time... I'm thrilled. These past few days have made

me believe in IE more and more. Instead of beating myself up over

every single thing I've put in my mouth... I've simply just gone with

it. I know what choices I'm making and for once I actually know why

I'm making them. I'm making them to fill the voids that I'm feeling

that I don't feel comfortable reaching out to people for right now.

For instance... I hate being sick and single. I hate not having

someone to comfort me... so of course... food can comfort me, and I've

let it. I'm not starting an argument with myself over if it's right

or wrong... I'm simply accepting it as the action that I'm taking and

moving on.

> Like just now... I was reaching my breaking point... I've yelled at

my kids, yelled at the dog... and was munching on cheetos... to hear

and feel the crunch. But something in me was wise enough to say...

" maybe you should go write to the group... get some of these feelings

out... " And I just proceeded to dump the bowl of cheetos. (don't get

too excited... I made a nice dent in it before I dumped it... lol)

> I'm learning myself through this process and learning that sometimes

I need an outlet. I don't have that outlet in person yet, because I'm

rebuilding my base of friends... but what I have learned so far is

that I'm beginning to get learn what my triggers are, and how to cope

with them.

> I wanted to write this email to show newbies that there are always

going to be good days and not so good days. A week ago I wrote an

email crowing about dropping thirty pounds... That was a good day...

This is a not so good day. And that's okay.

> In fact it's more than okay... it's the start of a normal

relationship with food... and I couldn't be more thrilled.

>

>

> Amy

>

> Let me run away with your money! Please help me raise $5000 for the

Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by training for and running the Nike

Women's Half Marathon!

> Visit:http://pages.teamintraining.org/uny/nikesf08/ahayes to

donate! Every dollar helps!

>

[Guest guest]

Great post Amy!! I had one of those days yesterday...I was off sick and miserable and alone. I'm single too and I found yesterday even though my stomach was upset I just wanted to eat. After reading your post, I realize what I wanted was someone to take care of and comfort me. So I found comfort in the Pringles can.

Kipkabob

(Intuitive eating since September 2006)

Subject: This is what it's all about for meTo: "Intuitive Eating" <intuitiveeating_support >Received: Sunday, July 20, 2008, 3:47 PM

The past three days have been miserable for me, and I'm showing it. I'm being miserable right back. I'm snapping at people, not sleeping well, and using food as my medication.

However, these three miserable days are not like other miserable days I've had in the past... because I know they will end when I make a choice to end them.

I'm a schedule oriented person. It's how I "roll" and the last four days have been anything but scheduled for me. We've been camping and the weather has been miserable, and I got sick and took a day off work... and needless to say... I have no concept right now of what a schedule is. I'm tired, angry, lonely and in general... not a happy person.

But at the same time... I'm thrilled. These past few days have made me believe in IE more and more. Instead of beating myself up over every single thing I've put in my mouth... I've simply just gone with it. I know what choices I'm making and for once I actually know why I'm making them. I'm making them to fill the voids that I'm feeling that I don't feel comfortable reaching out to people for right now. For instance... I hate being sick and single. I hate not having someone to comfort me... so of course... food can comfort me, and I've let it. I'm not starting an argument with myself over if it's right or wrong... I'm simply accepting it as the action that I'm taking and moving on.

Like just now... I was reaching my breaking point... I've yelled at my kids, yelled at the dog... and was munching on cheetos... to hear and feel the crunch. But something in me was wise enough to say... "maybe you should go write to the group... get some of these feelings out..." And I just proceeded to dump the bowl of cheetos. (don't get too excited... I made a nice dent in it before I dumped it... lol)

I'm learning myself through this process and learning that sometimes I need an outlet. I don't have that outlet in person yet, because I'm rebuilding my base of friends... but what I have learned so far is that I'm beginning to get learn what my triggers are, and how to cope with them.

I wanted to write this email to show newbies that there are always going to be good days and not so good days. A week ago I wrote an email crowing about dropping thirty pounds... That was a good day... This is a not so good day. And that's okay.

In fact it's more than okay... it's the start of a normal relationship with food... and I couldn't be more thrilled.

Amy

Let me run away with your money! Please help me raise $5000 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by training for and running the Nike Women's Half Marathon!Visit: http://pages. teamintraining. org/uny/nikesf08 /ahayes to donate! Every dollar helps!

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[Guest guest]

Great post Amy!! I had one of those days yesterday...I was off sick and miserable and alone. I'm single too and I found yesterday even though my stomach was upset I just wanted to eat. After reading your post, I realize what I wanted was someone to take care of and comfort me. So I found comfort in the Pringles can.

Kipkabob

(Intuitive eating since September 2006)

Subject: This is what it's all about for meTo: "Intuitive Eating" <intuitiveeating_support >Received: Sunday, July 20, 2008, 3:47 PM

The past three days have been miserable for me, and I'm showing it. I'm being miserable right back. I'm snapping at people, not sleeping well, and using food as my medication.

However, these three miserable days are not like other miserable days I've had in the past... because I know they will end when I make a choice to end them.

I'm a schedule oriented person. It's how I "roll" and the last four days have been anything but scheduled for me. We've been camping and the weather has been miserable, and I got sick and took a day off work... and needless to say... I have no concept right now of what a schedule is. I'm tired, angry, lonely and in general... not a happy person.

But at the same time... I'm thrilled. These past few days have made me believe in IE more and more. Instead of beating myself up over every single thing I've put in my mouth... I've simply just gone with it. I know what choices I'm making and for once I actually know why I'm making them. I'm making them to fill the voids that I'm feeling that I don't feel comfortable reaching out to people for right now. For instance... I hate being sick and single. I hate not having someone to comfort me... so of course... food can comfort me, and I've let it. I'm not starting an argument with myself over if it's right or wrong... I'm simply accepting it as the action that I'm taking and moving on.

Like just now... I was reaching my breaking point... I've yelled at my kids, yelled at the dog... and was munching on cheetos... to hear and feel the crunch. But something in me was wise enough to say... "maybe you should go write to the group... get some of these feelings out..." And I just proceeded to dump the bowl of cheetos. (don't get too excited... I made a nice dent in it before I dumped it... lol)

I'm learning myself through this process and learning that sometimes I need an outlet. I don't have that outlet in person yet, because I'm rebuilding my base of friends... but what I have learned so far is that I'm beginning to get learn what my triggers are, and how to cope with them.

I wanted to write this email to show newbies that there are always going to be good days and not so good days. A week ago I wrote an email crowing about dropping thirty pounds... That was a good day... This is a not so good day. And that's okay.

In fact it's more than okay... it's the start of a normal relationship with food... and I couldn't be more thrilled.

Amy

Let me run away with your money! Please help me raise $5000 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by training for and running the Nike Women's Half Marathon!Visit: http://pages. teamintraining. org/uny/nikesf08 /ahayes to donate! Every dollar helps!

Now with a new friend-happy design! Try the new Yahoo! Canada Messenger