to my RA friends

[Guest guest]

I feel bad for all of you and wonder if I can be strong like you all. I have

not had any positive diagnosis as of yet come out in my blood. But since I have

hit 40 years old, I have started with pain in my wrists and have operations on

them which found severe synovitis and tenosynovitis. When I google it, RA comes

up hands down. My middle and ring fingers on both hands in the last year are

swollen and the joints kill, like I broke my fingers. My feet and achilees

tendon in the a.m. are really bad and stiff that its hard to walk. I am seeing

a RA doctor named Dr. Upchurch in Worcester, MA who seems fine so far. She is

positive I have something autoimmune and gave me Celebrex which takes the edge

off.

I get depressed thinking what is going to become of me. My aunt has RA and is

in a wheel chair. Its really scary. I just want to be normal and live life,

like I am sure all you do. Sometimes you want something to justify this pain to

come out diagnostically so you can say see I told you I'm in pain, but in the

same breath your scared for anything to come out because its a sentence of whats

to become.

Thanks for listening.