I'm so frustrated!!!

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I guess it's my turn to whine and cry again. I was feeling so good ... was

on mtx oral (6 tabs) and only felt bad 1 1/2 to 2 days following the meds,

but was almost pain free ... I say ALMOST. I started the injections this

week and went up to .8ml (basically up 2 tabs worth) and today I feel

horrible! I tried getting some washing done and when I was lifting all the

clothes the muscles in my arms felt so incredibly weak! They were burning

and the clothes felt like they weighed a ton!

I rested for a bit and then tried to start getting the front room ready for

the Christmas tree ... yes, my Christmas tree is still in the attic!!! I

had to roll up a sleeping bag and tie it up. Well, the little buckle fell

off the tie piece and I had to thread the nylon strap back through (my

daughter came and helped me with that), but I'm in some major pain now! My

hands hurt so bad!

On top of this, I am incredibly worried about my daughter. She is 13 and

has been home from school for the past week on some pretty strong pain meds

because she has an ovarian cyst. She feels pretty good as long as she is

laying around in a reclined or semi-reclined position, but as soon as she

gets up and moving around for more than a couple minutes, she is in some

pretty bad pain. We were waiting this week to see if the cyst would resolve

on its own and they wouldn't have to do surgery, but from the way she is

complaining about the pain, I'm thinking it hasn't resolved. We will find

out at her appointment tomorrow for sure. Also, because it is so big, they

will not be able to do it laproscopically. They will have to do the full

abdominal surgery. I am trying to be so strong for her, but I am really

worried! Not worried that something could go wrong, but I don't want my

baby to have to go through surgery!

Could the stress of Christmas and my daughter's illness be causing the

decrease in effectiveness of the mtx? Did anyone have less relief from the

injections over the pills?

Thanks for letting me whine!

If you are so inclined, I would appreciate a prayer for my daughter's doctor

appointment tomorrow!

Hugs and wishes for pain free days to all!!!