Really really suffering (and very mad at myself)

May 10, 2010

Well, I am having a terrible time.

The pain in the past few days has been very extreme,though Predinsone has

given some relief (i've been taking it since Friday) Last night, I had such

bad pain in my achillis tendon and the back of my knees that it kept me up

all night. I just lay there moaning, hour after hour. I got no sleep at all.

The pain was unreal, and nothing seemed to help it. I tried ice, which did a

little. Hurts really a lot today, very painful but not as bad.

I read online that tendonits can be caused by RA. I have not done any

activity yesterday, But I was out all day for mother's day, though no

exercise really. What can you do for tendonitis?

Here is why I am mad at myself. I called my dr in the morning, and then fell

asleep and slept for about 2 hours, despite the pain. The dr called during

that time, and now he is not in the office. He sounded upset with me, and I

feel so stupid for missing him. Now I have to wait until tomorrow to talk to

him. I can't get in to see him until Friday.

I feel achy and sick, like the worst case of the flu. I feel like I was hit

by a truck, so weak and tired that i can't stand it. Is feeling like you

have the flu normal for RA or is it some kind of reaction to the medication?

A friend invited me to a movie, but no way I could go. Tomorrow I am

canceling my counsetling appointment,which I really wanted to go to. It is

just impossible, but I REALLY wish I could go.

The only good thing is that the pian in my hands is less, but its been

replaced by the pain in the tendons. I'm trying to sit and watch a movie. I

really want to sleep, but I'm afraid if I do I'll be up all night again.

Is there any end to this? It's like a nightmare.

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