Hey Everyone

[Guest guest]

I have been a member here for several weeks, I have made a few

comments or asked a few questions, but mainly have lurked.

I was just looking at hugapugs pics and I was amazed. She is

SOOOOOOOOOO skinny. I can never ever imagine being that little. I

have been a big girl all of my life. Not only am I heavy I am also

tall. So I will always be big in one way or another. When I was 12

I wore size 16. I have never been skinny.

All of that to say, I was denied to have my surgery in my town

because we dont have a COE, required by Blue Cross PPO. But,I have a

consultation and a seminar next month in Redding to get started on

the process. My BMI is 50, so I am a shoe in for the surgery. I

really want to have the surgery because of the health issues in my

family. Mom died of cancer when I was 15, Dad has heart issues and

is diabetic, sister had gestational diabetes with her second child.

I dont want to have health issues. I want to be healthy. I am 36

and want to live a normal lif.

My best friend is gettng married, I am the Maid of Honor and it was

so humiliating buying clothes for the wedding. My aunts all said

that they have had problems buying clothes, but I dont think that

they can understand when a 26/28 is to tight and they dont have a

30/32 available. I had a melt down just trying to find a outfit. I

want to shop at normal store. Not have to worry about just wearing

jeas but wearing cute clothes.

Thanks for listening and for all the support that I have already

gotten even though you did not know I was really here.

Barb