Venting and question...I think?

[Guest guest]

Ever since I found out I have RA it seems like my pain has gotten worse. I know

some of you might think...now that she know she is associating it to RA....

Really I don't think that I am. I had this as a kid and I do know what this pain

is all about. I went in complaining of pain but since I started meds for it I

feel like it has gotten worse. It feels like the meds brought more of the pain

on. I know this sounds crazy but it feels worse. When I was a kid they never

gave me meds (long story) I went though my teen and up until now 35 without

feeling much. I plaquenil did nothing for me. I think it made me feel worse. I

have been on MTX 10mg for a few months now. It helped in the beginning but now I

feel like I'm broken again. I did fine for awhile and then the mouth sores

started so I went from 1 folic acid to 4 on Sat and Sun. Then 3 M-T and on

Friday 4 MTX pills. I don't think I'm having a flair right now cause the last

one I felt like crap. I don't feel like crap right now but I do feel pain. I

have a doctors appointment on May 7th so I will be talking to him. I know it is

time to up my MTX. I'm just not looking forward to any side effects. LOL. I

sometimes wonder since I didn't take any meds when I was a kid and I came out ok

with no damage. Yes I was very lucky. Then maybe my body wasn't designed to take

meds. I'm not sure what I'm saying anymore. Lol. I think I'm just losing it

right now. Lol. I think maybe I should just shut up and end this email to put

all of you out of your misery. Lol. Just joking. Thanks for listening.

Cheli