Re: Dennis.....

[Guest guest]

Yes, Barbara, It's been a tough road. Last year I had to fight Prostate

Cancer and apparently won although it took it's toll on my body. I went from

about 170 pounds to 158 by the time treatment was done and I haven't gained

it back. My Rummy gave me Plaquenil that caused severe gastric problems and

landed me in the hospital. Then I went back in when following directions and

stopping one heart med. Then came the chemical stress test that felt like a

5 story building landing on my chest. That's when they found the

" Widowmaker " blockage in my heart, leading to the bypass surgery. All for

just an old standby, Plaquenil that I took for only almost 2 weeks. But in

the long run, depression seems to have won the prize and you don't just take

a pill for that. Thanks, Barbara.

Dennis in eastexas

On Thu, Jun 3, 2010 at 10:37 AM, Barbara Creedon <bcreedon@...> wrote:

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> OMG Dennis. You have been to the road to hell and back. I have no answer

> as to why your Rheumy has changed his plans for you. I would have no life

> if I was off my Pred. How are you feeling about getting off it? I have

> missed your posts, and knew something must be going on with you. I hope all

> this will be behind you, and you are on the road to a complete recovery.

>

> I hope Betty is doing better too.

>

> Just know I think of you often, and hope you begin to feel better soon.

>

> Hugs,

>

> Barbara

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Dennis.  You have through hell and it is no wonder you are depressed.  You

have so much to overcome, and I hope you can recover slowly and begin to have a

life again.  I am always amazed at what some of these meds. can do to us.  We

are all searching for the right meds. to give us our lives back.  It is a very

hard road for so many here.

 

I know that " Widow Maker " is very serious, and I am glad your were able to have

the by-pass surgery.  I hope that now that you have gone through so much, that

all the bad stuff is all in the past, and only good things ahead for you.  I

know how hard it has been for you.  All we are trying to do, is live with this

ugly disease, and have much better days ahead.  Some days that just seems so

impossible.  I hope your future will be much brighter, and less stressful.

 

I told you I was glad to see you posting again.  It is really good that you can

talk to all of us, so we can send you our support and love.  It does help

Dennis.

 

You know what I have been going through for the last 1  1/2 years.  I was in

very bad emotional shape, getting depressed, so I sought professional help.  It

was the best thing I did for myself.  I was doing better, but yesterday things

came crashing down on me.  My husband had intimated that we should try to get

back together, he loved me, missed me etc.  I have been on the fence over this. 

He left me a message to call hime which I did.  Well the w---e he is with picked

up the phone and said he was too busy to come to the phone.  I said, " Put my

husband on the phone " .

Her answer was this, " Barbara, I want to tell you something, and I have

been seeing each other for 3 years. "   To say I was devastated, was putting it

mildly.  I pushed the off button, and then I totally lost it.  I was hysterical

for 3 hours.  I really thought I would have a stroke.  Needless to say, I did

not sleep last night.  I called my attny. and said I am all done being nice.  I

do have a court date for July, which can't come faster for me.  All this sh--has

rained down on me, and I can't take anymore.  My drs. are worried about all this

stress I am under, and what it will do to me and my RA.  I have tried to live my

life with honesty, integrity, love and being a kind, gentle person.  I will

never change that.  I never thought anything like this would ever happen to me,

but it sure did.  I have had no debt for 30 years, and planned for our financial

security.  He has failed to comply with a court order, has given me no money

or 1/2 the value of our home.  I am in debt, which I hate, my son is supporting

me, which I hate, and I so want to move ahead.  Now I am done with my husband,

not going back, etc.  I am off that fence finally.  So you see Dennis, the

trauma in our lives, can cause serious depression.  We have to fight our way

back to the life we richly deserve, and need to have.  It is a up hill battle,

but we will win and survive in the end.  Life is much to short, living with

depression each day, is not the life we need or want.  I hope you rise above all

that has happened to you, and begin to enjoy the one life we have.

 

Please take care of yourself, and just know I care about you.  Things will get

better, I am sure of that.  I am going to volunteer at the animal shelter as I

love all animals with fur!!!!  I am also busy doing my Mermaid needlepoint, and

will get back to my folk art painting.  I also read a lot, and enjoy t.v.  I

also love my " magic machine, " and enjoy surfing the web.

 

I know better days are ahead for all of us.  Wishing you many pain free days

ahead, and better health.

 

Hugs,

 

Barbara 

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