Re: Re: Don't want to cook, don't want to eat, or do I?

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Katcha wrote:

> Would something uncooked be better? Or are you expecting to DESIRE the

> food so strongly that you want to consume it immediately?

Sometimes I think " pasta with pesto would be fine " but then I think

about that I have to go shopping for that first, then I have to cook and

clean up. After eating a few bites I feel full. My usual thought is

" it's too much work let's look what's in the house already - a pot of

cottage cheese, a banana, some saltines; let's eat this " .

> I am learning that as I tune in on eating 'only' what I want - I have

> to also remember that my body isn't going to tell me - Oh, do eat

> fresh green beans steamed lightly - but rather lead me in the

> direction of - psst -> hint hint - vegetables!

Doesn't seem to work at the moment. I don't know.

> That's a tough one, the 'veiled' comment that on the surface appears

> to be sooooo innocent, but wounds like a whip!!

It gets on my nerves big time.

> " Hmmm Mom, I am wondering if you are truly satisfied, full or just

> stopping because you think that's enough? I am working on discovering

> my own internal satisfaction level so I am noticing such things in

> others as an example. But I also know that the bottom line is to know

> when I am satisfied. " (just an example)

I know that she usually only thinks that's enough. At least it seems to

be like that.

> One other thing occurred to me too - the difference between the German

> words for full and satisfied. One our first trip to Germany, we

> learned that we didn't say - Das ist genug! [that's enough] but rather

> the more polite Ich bin satt. [i am satisfied] I bet your mom is

> really not as much satisfied herself as she is doing what she thinks

> is acceptable to those who see her?!?

Yes, I think it's exactly like this.

> I can't help but wonder if you are 'rejecting' food because you so

> want to loose weight? Has food become the 'enemy'? Or are you getting

> more refined in your tastes?

I'm not really sure. Maybe both is true. I noticed that the variety of

food I eat has narrowed. On the one hand I reject the above mentioned

foods, on the other hand I eat a breakfast containing a croissant,

cottage cheese[1] and banana or chocolate muffin. I also will eat a

pretzel with a chunk of full-fat cheese. It seems like eating meals with

separated ingredients are ok, but something like a sandwich with several

ingredients seems too much to handle all of a sudden. Same with cooked

food.

> I too postponed doing 'large required work' (term papers etc.) until

> the last minute. I HATED doing these as I felt they were not a

> reflection of what I knew nor really something that the instructors

> wanted to read either.

Yes, and not that it would count that I already worked my way through

the CD[2] one time during March to the end of May... Somehow I keep

forgetting that I did this. Or somehow it doesn't count, I don't know. I

don't feel able to read books. I can't concentrate on them. It's easier

to do the old questions. Worked my way through 50 questions earilier,

btw.

Regards

s.

[1] I eat tons of this stuff as it seems. Preferably with a spoon like a

yoghurt. I'd like to find a brand similar in taste to that I always ate

in switzerland.

[2] It's a collection of old exam questions almost all students use.

It's about 9.200 question. I'm on my second round through it and feeling

completely burnt out at the moment.