alice through the looking glass.

[Guest guest]

In the beginning did any of you feel like Alice and you had gone

throught the looking glass. It's like everything looks the same but all

the rules are different.

I find myself doing a lot of testing can I really eat anything I want

and as much as I want. Some times I even feel like I've gone crazy. The

only thing that is keeping me here, sometimes is that even if I went

back to the diet I was on for the last three and kept me a size 7.....I

know it would not work anymore.....because I have tried, and I can't do

it anymore.

I sometimes feel like everything is out of control, especially my

eating. (I think thank god I'm alergic to sugar or you would have that

to deal with too. And am doing enought damage with out the sugar.) I

know this is diet talk but it's hard to chase it away all the time.

I keep reading my IE book especially the phase two part. Where it says

all this is normal. Some times I'm so scared I cry. thanks for

listening.

I know when school starts (Iam a teacher) things will be easier. I get

ssso bored during the summer and it's hard to motivate myself to get

busy.

[Guest guest]

>

> In the beginning did any of you feel like Alice and you had gone

> throught the looking glass. It's like everything looks the same but

all

> the rules are different.

>

Hi Gail,

Yes, what you are feeling is very normal. I remember writing in my

journal during my first month that I felt like Cinderella at the ball

and that at the stroke of midnight, my coach was going to turn into a

pumpkin and I was going to wake up 100 pounds heavier, buried in

pizza boxes and Hostess cupcake wrappers. (But I am happy to say,

that did not happen.):-)

All the rules ARE different, and not just for you and me and the

members of this group. We are following a set of rules that

practically NO ONE in this country follows! It is pretty mind blowing

stuff. That is why it is good we have this group to come to, to

remind us that in THIS case it is true, we are not crazy, everyone

else is! :-)

Hang in there!

[Guest guest]

Gail, for sure IE is 'topsy turvy' from dieting! Looking back now I

can see that beyond the food issues, the underlying NON-body 'hungers'

are perhaps an even more challenge. Add to that the fact that we have

been led to believe that 1) we are unworthy of success and 2) if we do

pursue our own needs we are then 'selfish', which takes on even more

connotations and negative self talk.

Don't let the diet demons/gremlins run your life!! Think of yourself

as the little child you were and still are inside. I'm sure you can

find patience and understanding for that small child, all you have to

do is apply that same attitude to you current self.

Drowning out the incessant noise of diet mentality is difficult.

Almost makes one want to walk around with headsets playing one's

favorite mellow music! But do take heart that like any 'skill',

practice and patience will reward you with having it in your life. IE

is no different and I am happy to have this group to help keep my on

track too.

Keep posting! Best to you - Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> In the beginning did any of you feel like Alice and you had gone

> throught the looking glass. It's like everything looks the same but all

> the rules are different.

>

> I find myself doing a lot of testing can I really eat anything I want

> and as much as I want. Some times I even feel like I've gone crazy. The

> only thing that is keeping me here, sometimes is that even if I went

> back to the diet I was on for the last three and kept me a size 7.....I

> know it would not work anymore.....because I have tried, and I can't do

> it anymore.

>

> I sometimes feel like everything is out of control, especially my

> eating. (I think thank god I'm alergic to sugar or you would have that

> to deal with too. And am doing enought damage with out the sugar.) I

> know this is diet talk but it's hard to chase it away all the time.

>

> I keep reading my IE book especially the phase two part. Where it says

> all this is normal. Some times I'm so scared I cry. thanks for

> listening.

>

> I know when school starts (Iam a teacher) things will be easier. I get

> ssso bored during the summer and it's hard to motivate myself to get

> busy.

>

[Guest guest]

Well put Katcha. Like any skill.... this is definitely a new skill

and one that can be accomplished with practice, time and most of all

patience. My road is a winding one but I'm okay with that. No one

from WW will ever tell me I must have felt so small for gaining the

weight back after losing 50 lbs twice. I can remember seeing so many

miserable, defeatist faces at meetings. I'm a much happier person

just knowing this will be with me for life and most of all having a

place like this I can go to!!

Thanks,

J.

> >

> > In the beginning did any of you feel like Alice and you had gone

> > throught the looking glass. It's like everything looks the same

but all

> > the rules are different.

> >

> > I find myself doing a lot of testing can I really eat anything I

want

> > and as much as I want. Some times I even feel like I've gone

crazy. The

> > only thing that is keeping me here, sometimes is that even if I

went

> > back to the diet I was on for the last three and kept me a size

7.....I

> > know it would not work anymore.....because I have tried, and I

can't do

> > it anymore.

> >

> > I sometimes feel like everything is out of control, especially my

> > eating. (I think thank god I'm alergic to sugar or you would have

that

> > to deal with too. And am doing enought damage with out the

sugar.) I

> > know this is diet talk but it's hard to chase it away all the

time.

> >

> > I keep reading my IE book especially the phase two part. Where it

says

> > all this is normal. Some times I'm so scared I cry. thanks for

> > listening.

> >

> > I know when school starts (Iam a teacher) things will be easier.

I get

> > ssso bored during the summer and it's hard to motivate myself to

get

> > busy.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I am right there with you today. Thanks for posting this - it's

something I needed to see.

>

> In the beginning did any of you feel like Alice and you had gone

> throught the looking glass. It's like everything looks the same but

all

> the rules are different.

>

> I find myself doing a lot of testing can I really eat anything I

want

> and as much as I want. Some times I even feel like I've gone crazy.

The

> only thing that is keeping me here, sometimes is that even if I

went

> back to the diet I was on for the last three and kept me a size

7.....I

> know it would not work anymore.....because I have tried, and I

can't do

> it anymore.

>

> I sometimes feel like everything is out of control, especially my

> eating. (I think thank god I'm alergic to sugar or you would have

that

> to deal with too. And am doing enought damage with out the sugar.)

I

> know this is diet talk but it's hard to chase it away all the time.

>

> I keep reading my IE book especially the phase two part. Where it

says

> all this is normal. Some times I'm so scared I cry. thanks for

> listening.

>

> I know when school starts (Iam a teacher) things will be easier. I

get

> ssso bored during the summer and it's hard to motivate myself to

get

> busy.

>