Re: always in pain....

[Guest guest]

Hi Betty,

Hopefully you have my email address now. Don't go through this on your own.

Email me and don't hold back. One thing I have learned from this disease is, we

all need someone who completely understands what we suffer to sound off to.

 

So get on your pc and let it rip.

 

I'm sending a big big hug to you.

 

x

From: betty gates <bettygates@...>

Subject: [ ] always in pain....

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Date: Tuesday, 24 March, 2009, 7:35 AM

its late, 2:05 am , tuesday morning. haven't been able to sleep tonight. one of

those nights. not a lot of pain right now, just worry .... i get a lot on my

mind and there is no sleeping for me. have you ever had so many things to worry

about, that you don't know which one to worry about first.... and then the

worries all run together and so you just sit down and cry. lord, i wish i had

anybody to talk to. i have noone since my sister died three yrs. ago. we talked

about every thing. now i am totally alone. i miss her so bad. i have a jar on

her grave, and i write down all my thoughts and put them in the jar. .... ya'll

please don't think i'm crazy, i'm really not. just my way of talking to her. she

died with COPD, and she suffered so long. i was holding her head in my arms when

she died. my husband never went to see her, didn't even go with me to her

funeral, i went by myself. such a cruel man.....

got to get out of this depression.. .!!!

today i had a bad day with my pain, and no strength. i don't know what i'd do

without my lortabs. i guess you can become addicted to them. at this point with

my pain, i really don't care if i do. when my hands stop hurting, my back,

shoulders, and hips and knees start. always something hurting...lol.. .. yep..!

! !! always in pain. as the saying goes, if you're not hurting, you might be

dead....lol. ..o k..

judy, your post was so beautiful when you said you sit quietly and close your

eyes, and think of your body whole again. thats heaven you are talking about,

you know. to me that is what heaven will be like. no more pain, a new body, no

more tears...peace and joy and love, and being with the lord jesus. then, we

won't hurt any more.

when i read everyones posts, i feel so much fear and pain. fear of the pain and

fear of the medicines. god bless you all. you are all so brave. living like this

is not easy, and so many of you are in a lot worse shape than i'm in. i respect

and admire all of ya'll. i pray for you all.

guess i've taken up too much of ya'll's time here. i'm sorry. just lonesome

tonight.

god bless, comfort and love to you all,

BETTY

PRAY FOR OUR TROOPS

MAY NO SOLDIER GO UNLOVED, MAY NO SOLDIER WALK ALONE, MAY NO SOLDIER BE

FORGOTTEN, UNTIL THEY ALL COME HOME.

SOLDIER'S ANGELS

[Guest guest]

Hi Betty:

I feel so badly that you are so worried, in pain, and feel you are all

alone. You are not alone. You have so many friends here that will

write to you, and offer you a shoulder to cry on, and many hugs too.

You have suffered a terrible loss when you lost your sister. I know how

hard it is for you now. You are not alone. We are all here for you.

I wish you would call your dr. and tell them how much you are hurting,

phyically and mentally. It is no wonder you can't sleep. You have to

much to deal with everyday. You need some relief from pain, and you

really need a nice, compassionate dr. to talk with about your worries,

sadness, etc.

I feel your pain and sadness. I am here for you anytime.

I pray that God helps you, and that you will be pain free soon.

Hugs,

Barbara

>

> its late, 2:05 am , tuesday morning. haven't been able to sleep

tonight. one of those nights. not a lot of pain right now, just worry

..... i get a lot on my mind and there is no sleeping for me. have you

ever had so many things to worry about, that you don't know which one to

worry about first.... and then the worries all run together and so you

just sit down and cry. lord, i wish i had anybody to talk to. i have

noone since my sister died three yrs. ago. we talked about every thing.

now i am totally alone. i miss her so bad. i have a jar on her grave,

and i write down all my thoughts and put them in the jar. .... ya'll

please don't think i'm crazy, i'm really not. just my way of talking to

her. she died with COPD, and she suffered so long. i was holding her

head in my arms when she died. my husband never went to see her, didn't

even go with me to her funeral, i went by myself. such a cruel man.....

>

> got to get out of this depression...!!!

>

> today i had a bad day with my pain, and no strength. i don't know what

i'd do without my lortabs. i guess you can become addicted to them. at

this point with my pain, i really don't care if i do. when my hands stop

hurting, my back, shoulders, and hips and knees start. always something

hurting...lol... yep..! ! !! always in pain. as the saying goes, if

you're not hurting, you might be dead....lol...o k..

>

> judy, your post was so beautiful when you said you sit quietly and

close your eyes, and think of your body whole again. thats heaven you

are talking about, you know. to me that is what heaven will be like. no

more pain, a new body, no more tears...peace and joy and love, and being

with the lord jesus. then, we won't hurt any more.

>

> when i read everyones posts, i feel so much fear and pain. fear of the

pain and fear of the medicines. god bless you all. you are all so brave.

living like this is not easy, and so many of you are in a lot worse

shape than i'm in. i respect and admire all of ya'll. i pray for you

all.

>

> guess i've taken up too much of ya'll's time here. i'm sorry. just

lonesome tonight.

>

> god bless, comfort and love to you all,

>

>

>

> BETTY

>

> PRAY FOR OUR TROOPS

>

> MAY NO SOLDIER GO UNLOVED, MAY NO SOLDIER WALK ALONE, MAY NO SOLDIER

BE FORGOTTEN, UNTIL THEY ALL COME HOME.

>

> SOLDIER'S ANGELS

>

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>

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