Pseudo permission

[Guest guest]

Until now I hadn't felt like I truly gave myself full permission to eat

whatever I wanted whenever. I had this voice in my head that would

creap in and make comments. Once I truly gave myself permission I had

a wonderful day yesterday. I ate what I wanted, when I wanted. I paid

attention to when I was hungry, paid attention to my last bite

threshold and walked away from the cupboard when I was not hungry. I

allowed myself chips without the guilt and without that voice. The

biggest struggle I have now is at work as my work can be very chaotic

or it can be very slow and I can't always eat then I get shaky, dopey

and very tired. I know when I get home after my work day (which is

usually a 12 hour day) I'm usually eating as I'm tired and frustrated.

I think in the winter that problem can be solved by having a bath.

Next summer that can be solved once I get my pool. I'm noticing a

direct relationship to water as water has always given me such peace

and peace of mind. When I was younger and I felt things were out of

control I was usually sitting by the river or lake...hmmm.

Thanks,

J.