Kathie, Joyce re: keeping stuff

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Kathie and Joyce,

Such a topic. It's a difficult balance. I am an anti-clutter

girl... something from the battle/struggle w/ my Mom over the

years. My Mom was the Queen and I do mean Queen of clutter, pack

rat, and collecting. I used to just roll my eyes, shake my head and

scream w/ frustration and disgust at it. Because I didn't

understand my Mom in so many ways and was just a stupid rebel in so

many ways I have fought to not be like her so I don't collect, I

cringe at clutter, I like for things to have a place and be returned

there. As I said w/ my new perspective of my " journey " and trying

to actually open my mind to what I am able to learn. I realized in

listening to people talk about my Mom that it was partly a

generational thing, partly a coming from not having $ thing, partly

a New England thing. However, I do still have a procrastination

thing and just a simple not wanting to let some stuff go for

whatever reason. I had a piece of cross-stitch that I worked on (or

not) for like 10 years. For the most part I don't let myself move

on to the next project until one is done, but this was my

exception. Someone else bought it for me (actually my ex-fiancee')

and it was so detailed and I never would have picked it out.

However, I started it for some reason and about 10 years later I

finished it. It now hangs in my kitchen and I can look on it and

realize the accomplishment and see that procrastination, excuses,

story or not, I did finally complete it. On the other hand I did

just send back the box of inherited recipes and cookbooks I got from

's Aunt when she passed a few years ago. I had grand plans to

compile and make a cookbook, family treasure, continue the history,

big project. I even scanned 2 full hand written probably 100 year

old cookbooks page by page and edited the layout, but upon pricing

the cost to provide for the family it was a deal breaker. I just

couldn't do what I wanted the way I wanted and as hard as it was to

give in and say I can't do it, it was more detrimental to have them

hanging over my head. I wanted them gone prior to all this w/

transplant. There are other things that I hang on to like my hockey

equipment and bike that I hope someday I could use again when I get

all fixed up. I also have been happy to have kept things that

previously I thought I would never have the " down-time " to enjoy and

have much enjoyed lately, not only my cross-stitching, but I spent

an hour or two the other day looking out the window w/ bird watching

books and binoculars. Like everything else it's a balancing act or

one where I have to decide why I keeping it. If it's a fond memory

or a sad reminder, if it's a positive goal or something hanging over

my head. Balance, balance, balance.

Kerry

37 IPF '01 S. IN

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> > > > > > > Oh Peggy, that's just horrible. What a genius and

after

> > > > > spoke to

> > > > > > > him too. Grrrrrrrr I'd be so aggravated. Are you

staying

> > inside?

> > > > > > > Please?????

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> > > > > > > Beth

> > > > > > > Age 48 Fibrotic NSIP 06/06

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> > > > > > > Change everything. Love and Forgive

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> > > > > > > my exciting Sunday

> > > > > > >

> > > > > > > Well, last wed. or thurs. the fellow that lives behind

us

> > > > dumped a

> > > > > > > dump truck full of logs and debris from a tree job he

did in

> > two

> > > > > lots

> > > > > > > behind our little place. I saw it and told he is

going to

> > > > burn

> > > > > > > our house down. So went to the fence and ask if

he was

> > > > > going to

> > > > > > > burn all that h said yes. told him about my lung

disease

> > and

> > > > > > >

> > > > > > > I couldn't breath with that in the air. So he said he

> > > > wouldn't. We

> > > > > > > went to church and I told I had a dream

> > > > > > > our house had caught on fire and I couldn't get out.

> > > > > > > Well don't you know we come in from church and there

is the

> > FIRE

> > > > > > > TRUCK on the side road spraying that stinking

> > > > > > > bunch of logs. I haven't called yet to see about

getting them

> > > > > removed

> > > > > > > from there but I was a bit MORE that MAD.

> > > > > > > It is a real good thing I went to Church yesterday.. (

I do

> > > > have a

> > > > > > > gun !!!!! hee hee)

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> > > > > > > The smell is still in the air.. this is a major

> > > > GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR.

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> > > > > > > Love and Prayers, Peggy

> > > > > > > Have a God Blessed Day

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