Guest guest Posted August 22, 2008 Report Share Posted August 22, 2008 I recently started dating again! Whew! It has been many years! This is a man I met several years ago and we have reconnected. This week I found myself falling into my old pattern of eating through the night until I go to bed! A couple reasons why: 1) I needed to go to the grocery store as we were very low on a lot of foods - a lot of staples. When the house gets like this I can always find something to fix, but I realized I was not feeling satisfied. 2)The second reason I realized was all of the crazy emotions and thoughts running through my head about dating this man. He is a man that I know likes larger women. That is a good thing. But I think part of me was wanting to test the limits and see if he really does like a " bigger " women. Crazy thinking, I know. " Lets see how much weight we can gain and see if he still likes you and wants to be with you " .At least I'm aware of it! There have also been thoughts going back and forth in my head, often very subconscious - " you don't deserve to have love, fun, a relationship etc " . But then I fall back into my mantra's of " you are beautiful and perfect in every way. You do deserve to have love in your life and someone who cares about you " . It's like this internal battle going on in my head. Vwey frustrating and scary. What I have concluded is, Thank goodness I am so much aware of my patterns and the thoughts in my head! All I need to do is stay present and mindfull, especially around food and feelings and thoughts. And take each day at a time. No need to worry about the future. just enjoy each day. Thanks for letting me share. Alana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 22, 2008 Report Share Posted August 22, 2008 Congrats Alana on starting dating again!! That's exciting and scary all at the same time. I know I'd feel that way if it was me! It sounds like you are doing great though...you recognized what was causing your emotional eating. And most of all you didn't beat yourself up about it. Good luck on the dating scene! Kipkabob (Intuitive eating since September 2006) Subject: A week of returning to Emotional EatingTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Received: Friday, August 22, 2008, 11:51 AM I recently started dating again! Whew! It has been many years! This is a man I met several years ago and we have reconnected. This week I found myself falling into my old pattern of eating through the night until I go to bed! A couple reasons why: 1) I needed to go to the grocery store as we were very low on a lot of foods - a lot of staples. When the house gets like this I can always find something to fix, but I realized I was not feeling satisfied. 2)The second reason I realized was all of the crazy emotions and thoughts running through my head about dating this man. He is a man that I know likes larger women. That is a good thing. But I think part of me was wanting to test the limits and see if he really does like a "bigger" women. Crazy thinking, I know. "Lets see how much weight we can gain and see if he still likes you and wants to be with you".At least I'm aware of it!There have also been thoughts going back and forth in my head, often very subconscious - "you don't deserve to have love, fun, a relationship etc". But then I fall back into my mantra's of "you are beautiful and perfect in every way. You do deserve to have love in your life and someone who cares about you". It's like this internal battle going on in my head. Vwey frustrating and scary.What I have concluded is, Thank goodness I am so much aware of my patterns and the thoughts in my head! All I need to do is stay present and mindfull, especially around food and feelings and thoughts. And take each day at a time. No need to worry about the future. just enjoy each day.Thanks for letting me share.Alana Yahoo! Canada Toolbar : Search from anywhere on the web and bookmark your favourite sites. Download it now! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 22, 2008 Report Share Posted August 22, 2008 Alana, I am so HAPPY to hear about you diving into the dating game And bravo that you are aware of your reactions - that will keep you sane and on track for YOURSELF as your feet start to leave the ground (he he). How about re-visiting the Judgment of Paris site to get a few ideas for 'sexy at large'?!? ;-) I still marvel at how wonderful those women look. You can too!! (send pictures ok? LOL LOL) BEST to you and lots of hugs too - Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > I recently started dating again! Whew! It has been many years! > This is a man I met several years ago and we have reconnected. This > week I found myself falling into my old pattern of eating through > the night until I go to bed! A couple reasons why: 1) I needed to > go to the grocery store as we were very low on a lot of foods - a > lot of staples. When the house gets like this I can always find > something to fix, but I realized I was not feeling satisfied. 2)The > second reason I realized was all of the crazy emotions and thoughts > running through my head about dating this man. > He is a man that I know likes larger women. That is a good thing. > But I think part of me was wanting to test the limits and see if he > really does like a " bigger " women. Crazy thinking, I know. " Lets > see how much weight we can gain and see if he still likes you and > wants to be with you " .At least I'm aware of it! > There have also been thoughts going back and forth in my head, often > very subconscious - " you don't deserve to have love, fun, a > relationship etc " . But then I fall back into my mantra's of " you > are beautiful and perfect in every way. You do deserve to have love > in your life and someone who cares about you " . It's like this > internal battle going on in my head. Vwey frustrating and scary. > What I have concluded is, Thank goodness I am so much aware of my > patterns and the thoughts in my head! All I need to do is stay > present and mindfull, especially around food and feelings and > thoughts. And take each day at a time. No need to worry about the > future. just enjoy each day. > Thanks for letting me share. > Alana > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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