not liking any food any more?

[Guest guest]

Hi,

First thanks to all of you for your inspiring posts.I have started to

read the book Intuitive eating (I had the ebook Am I hungry before)

and I find it very very intelligent and liberating.

However, I am struggling very much right now, it seems that all the

food I craved taste bad, and that healthy food taste bad too, if I

cold never deal with food again and get a food patch I would, this is

absolutly ridiculous to say I know, and I think because I had been an

very restrictive eater and a chronic dieter since age 15, diet

mentality is very deeply ancred in me so I am terrified to eat. I

seem to be hungry all the time and that a very few bites satify me or

maybe I am so scared to eat that I stop? Boy, I wish I could trust

my perceptions for once! I can`t throw my scale, managed to weight

myself twice a week instead of one a day, and my weight fluctuate

from 3-4 pounds up and down, I try to not let this affect me -the

chapter in the book which explain those variations helped. This is a

progress I think. I realize how much dieting had made damage to my

body and soul and I am angry.

I am currently trying to go throught a list of food that are big no-

no monsters for me including: bagels, fried chicken, french fries,

cookies, full fat cheese and white bread.

I had a mcdonald chicken sandwich and fries and did not finish it,

because I tasted it and I found it revolting. Truly, truly

disgusting. I would have killed to eat one of those while I was on

one of my numerous diets. Funny, isn`t it?

Thank for listening. This is a great group.

Nat