struggling part 2

[Guest guest]

Hi

Thanks to all for your support..O.k., my life turned into a major

chaos lately, had to wean off medications, my son was diagnosed with

sensory integration disorder and I have been eating without control,

tons of white carbohydrates, that made me edgy, bloated, depressed

and almost sick. I am thinking that I might be allergic to white

flour, I swear, my belly was three times the normal size after eating

that...I wonder. I am almost in panic mode because last time I weaned

off my meds I gained 15 pounds out of the blue and was never able to

remove them.

So, yesterday, I think because I want to feel some kind of control

over my life, I went to the store and bought a diet book. it is not a

bad diet book, it is called the diet cure and I got it in an attempt

to control my serotonin level (happy hormone) with food. But of

course there is a lot of health advice in the book, including what

to eat, when to eat it, and so on, and a bunch of supplements to

take. I gave it a try, worked physically to cut my cravings but my

diet rebel is alive...and got me totally revolting against that. The

point is: why do I always have to use food to feel that sens of

control - to take care of myself? I need to sit and think. I feel

like the ground is disappearing under me. I have no clue what will

help. I guess to accept to lose control. Hard. But one thing is very

obvious: no dieting for me: I just can`t take it anymore. I went to

the store and bought pants that fit - I deserve to be confortable in

my clothes. I will keep up my ie journey and hopefully those cravings

will end - and yes, a little more protein is a great idea, it seems

to work today for me.

Sorry for the long post, thanks for listening.

Nat