future ex- eating when I'm not hungry-er and IE-er Professional

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Hi there all IE-ers,

Allow me to introduce myself : my name is ; I'm 25 and I'm future

ex-compulsive eater/OUT-ers/binge eater/anything that relates to eating when

you're not hungry.

Though I' m not fat or obese per say, I might be considered slightly overweight,

but I like to call it sensually voluptuous which in today's society is

considered freakin'huge for some reason (Except if your name is Beyonce).

I used to be really thin, and Ithink I was a natural IE-er because I didn't

watch what I ate but just ate what I felt like eating. But in the past years I

have been slowly gaining weight because I have moments where I just stuff

myself, it can last a week during which I will eat anything that passes me by

even if I'm not hungry I'll crave the weirdest things and eat without even

appreciating what is in my mouth.

And then I'lll feel guilty for stuffing myself, disgusted at looking at my belly

round up or my cheeks get thicker and I'll want to go on a miracle diet, which

won't last more than 3 weeks until I think what the hell, I'm a free person I

can do what I want and I don't need to look like a stick to feel good so I can

eat... and there I go again on the roller coaster...It wouldn' t disturb me if I

wasn't aware of how this could very quickly take me to a point of no return

where I'm obese and desperate because I hate dieting.. When I found myself

drinking oil or vinegar to lose weight I realized I had to do something.

Since I read about IE I have been stuffing myself like a turkey all week ( and

having free candies at work don't help), I have eaten all possible things at all

possible hours just to work on feeling good about letting myself go about food,

and remembering I can eat whatever I want. It actually works in the sense that I

know how to refuse things (sometimes) now, eating all this stuff made me realize

it'd never go missing. I could eat it all now or it a little and see if I want

some more later.

And I have discovered the taste of too sweet (ME? chocolate addict) when I tried

a cookie that was offered to me but my body was craving for salted food...- but

I did eat the whole thing later in the pm- won't change everything too quick eh?

Anyways, I'm really thinking this IE is what I'm looking for, to get back on

track and free myself from whatever has held me back all these years.. to the

point of having me drink vinegar

So, thank you in advance for everytime you will help me out and make me feel

understood.

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