Slipped Up!

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Hugs Alana I am so happy that you had your light bulb moment Eva

Yesterday I had a co-worker that said something to me that - well, triggered me. What he said wasn't particularly horrible, but it triggered this internal voice inside of me that says "You are incapable, you are a disappointment, you are stupid, you are no good for anyting..." All because I made a slight mistake on one of my technician's schedule. I left work for lunch upset. I went home and ate my lunch - or should I say stuffed my lunch - and my feelings. It allowed me to pull myself together and get through the rest of my afternoon. When I went to bed, I woke about 2 hours later with really bad heartburn. I kind of had an "oh my gosh" moment and realized that I had made guacamole last night and sat down and ate every bet of it with tortilla chips. That was the equivilant of 4 avacados - all by myself. I then also had several slices of cheese and about 7 scoops of ice cream. Ugh! I really didn't know how much I consumed until I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible heart burn. My mind rewinded through my day and I remembered what had happened and recalled all of my feelings. And also, recalled really how much I really did eat. But I was totally mindless of doing it! Ya know what, I think - no I know, I've been doing this my whole life! No wonder I'm not dropping any weight! It's like a light bulb totally went on and it dawned on me how much I truly stuffed my feelings yesterday with food. I since have been able to "parent" the little girl inside of me that had all those feelings and soothe her and take care of her and love her and put those nasty thoughts in my head to rest. Today is a new day and I am starting all over again with honoring my body - and my feelings. I am extremely grateful for the awareness that came to me last night. I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much I really do "stuff" my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to move onto the next step - whatever that might be...Alana------------------------------------

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Yesterday I had a co-worker that said something to me that - well,

triggered me. What he said wasn't particularly horrible, but it

triggered this internal voice inside of me that says " You are

incapable, you are a disappointment, you are stupid, you are no good

for anyting... " All because I made a slight mistake on one of my

technician's schedule. I left work for lunch upset. I went home

and ate my lunch - or should I say stuffed my lunch - and my

feelings. It allowed me to pull myself together and get through the

rest of my afternoon. When I went to bed, I woke about 2 hours

later with really bad heartburn. I kind of had an " oh my gosh "

moment and realized that I had made guacamole last night and sat

down and ate every bet of it with tortilla chips. That was the

equivilant of 4 avacados - all by myself. I then also had several

slices of cheese and about 7 scoops of ice cream. Ugh! I really

didn't know how much I consumed until I woke up in the middle of the

night with horrible heart burn. My mind rewinded through my day and

I remembered what had happened and recalled all of my feelings. And

also, recalled really how much I really did eat. But I was totally

mindless of doing it! Ya know what, I think - no I know, I've been

doing this my whole life! No wonder I'm not dropping any weight!

It's like a light bulb totally went on and it dawned on me how much

I truly stuffed my feelings yesterday with food. I since have been

able to " parent " the little girl inside of me that had all those

feelings and soothe her and take care of her and love her and put

those nasty thoughts in my head to rest. Today is a new day and I

am starting all over again with honoring my body - and my feelings.

I am extremely grateful for the awareness that came to me last

night. I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much I

really do " stuff " my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to move

onto the next step - whatever that might be...

Alana

[Guest guest]

What a great connection to make. It's so good to see how you turned that around and used a "slip up" to help you grown in the intuitive eating process. You're such an encouragement! Kari

Subject: Re: Slipped Up!To: IntuitiveEating_Support Date: Thursday, September 11, 2008, 2:17 PM

Hugs Alana I am so happy that you had your light bulb moment Eva

In a message dated 9/11/2008 12:40:58 P.M. Central Daylight Time, ajslintoncomcast (DOT) net writes:

Yesterday I had a co-worker that said something to me that - well, triggered me. What he said wasn't particularly horrible, but it triggered this internal voice inside of me that says "You are incapable, you are a disappointment, you are stupid, you are no good for anyting..." All because I made a slight mistake on one of my technician's schedule. I left work for lunch upset. I went home and ate my lunch - or should I say stuffed my lunch - and my feelings. It allowed me to pull myself together and get through the rest of my afternoon. When I went to bed, I woke about 2 hours later with really bad heartburn. I kind of had an "oh my gosh" moment and realized that I had made guacamole last night and sat down and ate every bet of it with tortilla

chips. That was the equivilant of 4 avacados - all by myself. I then also had several slices of cheese and about 7 scoops of ice cream. Ugh! I really didn't know how much I consumed until I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible heart burn. My mind rewinded through my day and I remembered what had happened and recalled all of my feelings. And also, recalled really how much I really did eat. But I was totally mindless of doing it! Ya know what, I think - no I know, I've been doing this my whole life! No wonder I'm not dropping any weight! It's like a light bulb totally went on and it dawned on me how much I truly stuffed my feelings yesterday with food. I since have been able to "parent" the little girl inside of me that had all those feelings and soothe her and take care of her and love her and put those nasty thoughts in my

head to rest. Today is a new day and I am starting all over again with honoring my body - and my feelings. I am extremely grateful for the awareness that came to me last night. I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much I really do "stuff" my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to move onto the next step - whatever that might be...Alana------------ --------- --------- ------

[Guest guest]

The clarity that you received about that issue is invaluable and frees

up energy for your next step. You slipped up and are now able to

envision a new way forward. Awesome.

> I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much I

> really do " stuff " my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to move

> onto the next step - whatever that might be...

> Alana

>

[Guest guest]

Alana, the image you wrote about parenting the little girl inside you

made me teary. I need to do that do. Thanks for writing this, it is

such a great moment for you, and you are helping others too by

sharing.

Nat

>

> Yesterday I had a co-worker that said something to me that - well,

> triggered me. What he said wasn't particularly horrible, but it

> triggered this internal voice inside of me that says " You are

> incapable, you are a disappointment, you are stupid, you are no

good

> for anyting... " All because I made a slight mistake on one of my

> technician's schedule. I left work for lunch upset. I went home

> and ate my lunch - or should I say stuffed my lunch - and my

> feelings. It allowed me to pull myself together and get through

the

> rest of my afternoon. When I went to bed, I woke about 2 hours

> later with really bad heartburn. I kind of had an " oh my gosh "

> moment and realized that I had made guacamole last night and sat

> down and ate every bet of it with tortilla chips. That was the

> equivilant of 4 avacados - all by myself. I then also had several

> slices of cheese and about 7 scoops of ice cream. Ugh! I really

> didn't know how much I consumed until I woke up in the middle of

the

> night with horrible heart burn. My mind rewinded through my day

and

> I remembered what had happened and recalled all of my feelings.

And

> also, recalled really how much I really did eat. But I was totally

> mindless of doing it! Ya know what, I think - no I know, I've been

> doing this my whole life! No wonder I'm not dropping any weight!

> It's like a light bulb totally went on and it dawned on me how much

> I truly stuffed my feelings yesterday with food. I since have been

> able to " parent " the little girl inside of me that had all those

> feelings and soothe her and take care of her and love her and put

> those nasty thoughts in my head to rest. Today is a new day and I

> am starting all over again with honoring my body - and my

feelings.

> I am extremely grateful for the awareness that came to me last

> night. I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much

I

> really do " stuff " my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to

move

> onto the next step - whatever that might be...

> Alana

>

[Guest guest]

I am so happy you connected the event with the causing feelings. That

is so hard to do! I know you are progressing as best you can and this

could be a big step too. Very happy to hear you didn't beat yourself

up over this too. Hope the heartburn calmed down too.

Ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Yesterday I had a co-worker that said something to me that - well,

> triggered me. What he said wasn't particularly horrible, but it

> triggered this internal voice inside of me that says " You are

> incapable, you are a disappointment, you are stupid, you are no good

> for anyting... " All because I made a slight mistake on one of my

> technician's schedule. I left work for lunch upset. I went home

> and ate my lunch - or should I say stuffed my lunch - and my

> feelings. It allowed me to pull myself together and get through the

> rest of my afternoon. When I went to bed, I woke about 2 hours

> later with really bad heartburn. I kind of had an " oh my gosh "

> moment and realized that I had made guacamole last night and sat

> down and ate every bet of it with tortilla chips. That was the

> equivilant of 4 avacados - all by myself. I then also had several

> slices of cheese and about 7 scoops of ice cream. Ugh! I really

> didn't know how much I consumed until I woke up in the middle of the

> night with horrible heart burn. My mind rewinded through my day and

> I remembered what had happened and recalled all of my feelings. And

> also, recalled really how much I really did eat. But I was totally

> mindless of doing it! Ya know what, I think - no I know, I've been

> doing this my whole life! No wonder I'm not dropping any weight!

> It's like a light bulb totally went on and it dawned on me how much

> I truly stuffed my feelings yesterday with food. I since have been

> able to " parent " the little girl inside of me that had all those

> feelings and soothe her and take care of her and love her and put

> those nasty thoughts in my head to rest. Today is a new day and I

> am starting all over again with honoring my body - and my feelings.

> I am extremely grateful for the awareness that came to me last

> night. I don't think it has come to me that clearly just how much I

> really do " stuff " my feelings. I guess this means I'm ready to move

> onto the next step - whatever that might be...

> Alana

>