feeling defeated.

[Guest guest]

I've been eating intuitively now since the beginning of october, and

have been (mostly) feeling better. yesterday, out of curiosity i

weighed myself to see if I had lost weight (i honestly felt like i had

lost a pound or two at least) but it turns out i GAINED weight. like 4

pounds. and now i'm feeling completely defeated and lost. has anyone

else experienced this? i know its completely individual, but will i

ever really lose weight? how long does it take the average person??

[Guest guest]

christina.depalma wrote:

> but it turns out i GAINED weight. like 4

> pounds. and now i'm feeling completely defeated and lost. has anyone

> else experienced this?

Haha, yes. Told me some lesson. I won't step on the scales anymore

before quite a long time is over...

Regards

s.

[Guest guest]

Just remember that it is the diet mentality that says that weight loss

should be a evenly downward sloping line. In Intuitive Eating, the

line is more jagged - you may gain, you may maintain, you may lose

weight - you probably will do all three in your IE journey!!!

The scale still tempts me with its siren song - but I have to remember

that is what it is - a Siren's song that sounds beautiful but will

leave me stranded and broken on the rocks.

I am still guilty of stepping on the scale - and still waiting to see a

weight loss - but the number doesn't own me as much as it used to.

Most of the time I look on the scale as a remnant from the past - the

time when MY opinion of myself didn't matter/wasn't important. I was

so focused on what did OTHER people think of me, my weight, my food

choices, etc. The scale was another way of punishing myself for

not " measuring up " - a very painful way to live, indeed.

Intuitive Eating is about turning inward and listening to your own Best

Self, finding out what is true for you. I have not lost any weight so

far (been doing this since Mar '08) but I can see that I have gained a

lot more in my life. I am able to maintain a weight and still eat

everything that I want (and I don't mean that little unsatisfying

sliver of something after starving myself all week on WW). I am

walking and moving every day and finding I really need that movement to

keep my anxiety level manageable. I am much kinder to myself and the

poisonous old self-criticism tapes that used to play constantly are

barely there these days. In the beginning, checking in with myself

about my hunger, satiety or food cravings took a lot of effort. Now,

through the use of yoga and meditation, I am checking in more often

with myself on other matters - am I anxious? do I need to get away

from my desk? Gee, I am feeling " squirrelly " - do I need to go speak up

if I am feeling resentful? Sometimes when I know a particular day at

work will be challenging, I wear a watch that chimes on the hour and

practice deep breathing and checking in with myself each time it

rings. If I don't pay attention to these early warning signals, I find

myself in a binge - which is happening very infrequently now!!

If you started at the beginning of October, you are just getting

started on your journey - give it time to improve your life, not just

your weight!

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> I've been eating intuitively now since the beginning of october, and

> have been (mostly) feeling better. yesterday, out of curiosity i

> weighed myself to see if I had lost weight (i honestly felt like i

had

> lost a pound or two at least) but it turns out i GAINED weight. like

4

> pounds. and now i'm feeling completely defeated and lost. has anyone

> else experienced this? i know its completely individual, but will i

> ever really lose weight? how long does it take the average person??

>