Help...regressing...

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Hello Everyone,

I have not emailed in a while and I regrettably admit that I have

stopped reading the posts as much. I was doing very well at IE and

making progress with binging and doing well and was moving on to

working on stopping when I was full. I have been stuck for some time

now and seem to be regressing on my journey. I just keep having days

where I want to do nothing but eat and it's getting worse and the

eating is getting worse and therefore I am feeling worse about myself

and my body. and of course those feeling just feed the cycle. All I

see when I look at myself is fat, fat, fat and I can't get past that

to see the good about some things that I see. And so now lately I have

had thoughts of wanting to go back to the diet mentality and restrict

things and start counting calories. And I keep trying to talk myself

out of it saying that I was in no better of a place then than I am

right now. I am just sick of it and sick of not losing weight and not

knowing how to get past it all. And I keep trying to figure out

what's going on in my head and fix that first before I can work on the

eating stuff, but I just get so bogged down with it all I don't know

what to do to change it.