Guest guest Posted September 9, 2008 Report Share Posted September 9, 2008 First I can hope that while you feel you didn't do as you would have liked to do, that what you did do was the best you could at that moment. Accepting and being gentle with yourself in regards to this event will help you towards better results in the future. For now, you are coping and comforting in your 'usual' ways - period. Second, you noticed that you were in this process and chose to let it be what it was. Noting that you didn't like it is a positive in my mind! As time goes by, you will be better able to close the gap between trigger and reaction. You can't 'stop' what you don't 'see' ;-) The next step can be to keep observing that pattern and/or to PREpare for any other episodes by thinking how you would rather deal with them. Just having thought of this helps to have that as a choice option vs. just doing the 'same reaction' each time. Forget trying to 'punish' yourself by thinking about 'burning off the excess'. I think you will accomplish more by sitting with the feelings that 'excess' gives to you. If you don't like it, you won't do it? And besides, its a PAST event now - do you really want to live a life of forced exercise to overcome past events? Sounds like torture to me ;-) I can relate to the 'tired' feeling this all creates. But I am finding that I can dwell and roll around in my funk or say - this isn't fun - what is? I bet you have something about your 'eating life' that you have given up in the past - why not take that same thing and turn it into a FUN time? Like cake - do as dear here did - BAKE one that suited her and ATE it too. Soooo satisfying! Keep up the good job of noticing and acknowledging. Positive changes will build on that too. ehugs, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > I just ate an entire can of pringles, just felt like I couldn't stop. My > life is spinning out of control, and I know that's why I did it. My mother > has stage III colon cancer, and is going through chemo, my oldest son > decided to go and live with his father, and is seeming to want nothing to do > with me, his stepdad, or his brothers, and my husband just totaled out our > car. Luckily he's okay, but we are now back in another five year car > payment, and a lot of our income is gone due to not receiving child support. > I am surprised I haven't done this sooner. I never really have been one to > binge though, but something about chips. I don't know what it is, but now > I'm sitting here wondering how to burn off the probably 1200 calories I just > ate. I know it's done, and I should forget it and move on. I am so tired of > still calorie counting. I am tired of food period at this point. > > Alia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2008 Report Share Posted September 9, 2008 Your post brought tears to my eyes...I would probably be into the Pringles too! Try not to beat up on yourself! You've got enough to be going on with, without adding THAT stress to the mix. I remember a terrible time in my life, when things seemed to ALL be going bad, and eventually I just had to give myself permission to feel like s*#t, recognize that I was going to feel that way for a while, and to almost embrace those emotions. I don't know if it helped speed up my mood recovery, but it certainly helped me feel justified...it legitimized my feelings...I'm not really making any suggestions here; you will know what's best for you, ultimately. I guess I'm just expressing empathy! Hang in there. sigh I just ate an entire can of pringles, just felt like I couldn't stop. My life is spinning out of control, and I know that's why I did it. My mother has stage III colon cancer, and is going through chemo, my oldest son decided to go and live with his father, and is seeming to want nothing to do with me, his stepdad, or his brothers, and my husband just totaled out our car. Luckily he's okay, but we are now back in another five year car payment, and a lot of our income is gone due to not receiving child support. I am surprised I haven't done this sooner. I never really have been one to binge though, but something about chips. I don't know what it is, but now I'm sitting here wondering how to burn off the probably 1200 calories I just ate. I know it's done, and I should forget it and move on. I am so tired of still calorie counting. I am tired of food period at this point.Alia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2008 Report Share Posted September 9, 2008 ((Alia)) Have a good cry, then dust yourself off and wait for hunger. I too do this several times a day, so you are in good company. Life is incredibly stressful over here right now and I find myself making poor eating choices all day long. But in between, there are glimmers of who I'm going to be some day. I wait for hunger. I think about how I want to feel after I've eaten. I stop when I'm full. Be gentle with yourself. This is not a sprint, it's a marathon and the journey is the goal. You can do it! dawn > > I just ate an entire can of pringles, just felt like I couldn't stop. My > life is spinning out of control, and I know that's why I did it. My mother > has stage III colon cancer, and is going through chemo, my oldest son > decided to go and live with his father, and is seeming to want nothing to do > with me, his stepdad, or his brothers, and my husband just totaled out our > car. Luckily he's okay, but we are now back in another five year car > payment, and a lot of our income is gone due to not receiving child support. > I am surprised I haven't done this sooner. I never really have been one to > binge though, but something about chips. I don't know what it is, but now > I'm sitting here wondering how to burn off the probably 1200 calories I just > ate. I know it's done, and I should forget it and move on. I am so tired of > still calorie counting. I am tired of food period at this point. > > Alia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2008 Report Share Posted September 9, 2008 Thanks all for your letters of support. Normally after eating like that I would starve all day, but tonight I allowed myself a normal sized dinner. I feel that that at least is a good step. Now I'm not starving for the next day, and hopefully can make a healthier choice tomorrow. Alia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 Alia, you're right - put it behind you, no blame, no shame. You're in a difficult spot right now, so be kind to yourself, nurturing, non- judgmental, forgiving and understanding of why you have had this off- focus moment – free of guilt, self-recrimination or punishment. It's not surprising that you might use food as a coping mechanism in such circumstances. Many of us have (probably many still do). Hopefully, as you learn better ways of coping with your emotions and intuitive eating teaches you how food can take its place in your life as just food, not a coping mechanism, such events will decrease. Hugs to you Sig > > I just ate an entire can of pringles, just felt like I couldn't stop. My > life is spinning out of control, and I know that's why I did it. ... I know it's done, and I should forget it and move on. I am so tired of > still calorie counting. I am tired of food period at this point. > > Alia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 Don't stress about it. It's PRINGLES for heaven's sake, not crack!! The other day I ate a "piece" of chocolate cake the size of my head. I'm stressed about money, having to go visit my sick mother, and all the rest of the things that make me stressed. Sometimes... just sometimes, food *is* the best medicine when life gets crazy. Just know that it's what you're doing, that it's not going to kill you, you are doing the best you can, and let it go. Don't make it worse by taking that Pringles can and beating yourself with it. PS: I loved every single bite of that cake and would have kept eating if my stomach had not threatened revolt. (¯`v´¯) `*.¸.*´ ¸.•´¸.•*¨) ¸.•*¨ (¸.•´ (¸.•´ Traci Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 Alia, good for you for giving yourself a normal dinner! It's like the saying " Do the next right thing. " Fall down, do the next right thing and get back up again. Once you're up, do the next right thing and start walking toward your goal, etc. etc. Congrats on doing the next right thing! I hope the coming days are more peaceful for you, you deserve it! > > Thanks all for your letters of support. Normally after eating like that I > would starve all day, but tonight I allowed myself a normal sized dinner. I > feel that that at least is a good step. Now I'm not starving for the next > day, and hopefully can make a healthier choice tomorrow. > > Alia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 Great 'step' on your IE journey! Good job too Katcha IEIng since March 2007 > > Thanks all for your letters of support. Normally after eating like that I > would starve all day, but tonight I allowed myself a normal sized dinner. I > feel that that at least is a good step. Now I'm not starving for the next > day, and hopefully can make a healthier choice tomorrow. > > Alia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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