Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 I am so sick with some kind of stomach virus (and headache). Ourgrandson had it, now our other grandson has it, now I have it! ugh!!My tummy feels like I am on a roller coaster!! IE is new to me, so I have no history to report however a new discoveryis that when I use food to drug my self, it's different than when I justeat. My whole definition of what I am doing is totally opposite. It's likean addict securing a good fix or hit, I chose food that will cause me toescape, I guess is the word. I know it will knock me out and I do it forthat reason. But with IE, the food I used as a drug does not appeal tome at all. It's like I don't even like it. When seeing it as a food and tastingit as a food to eat, it's not all that great. When seeing it as a drug and tasting it to escape, my passion for it is irresistible. Very weird. How canthe same thing be different according to what state of mind I am in? yetit is. When I am eating, I want to make delicious meals with fresh ingredients and I feel good about it and want to share it with every one.I see food as a blessing and beautiful. But when I need to use, it becomessomething to grasp at and hide and wait for when I am alone so I can drugout on it. It's what's in my heart and my head and spirit as to what thefood becomes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2008 Report Share Posted September 10, 2008 Shar_ley, for sure being sick throws your internal body feedback off kelter! But what you wrote about food has a familiar ring to it for me too. It takes time and allowing yourself to connect again with not only how your body does feel (physical sensations) but also the WHY we eat as we do. This is where IE and dieting really seperate - dieting TELLS you what, when while IE encourages you to discover what and when for yourself as well as why too. Considering that it has taken us years and years (childhood alone is about 16 years itself) to evolve our eating reasons and patterns (away from what our bodies already HAD), then taking an year or so to reverse that doesn't sound like asking all that much, does it? Hang in there and gift yourself time and patience - you ARE worth it Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > I am so sick with some kind of stomach virus (and headache). Our > grandson had it, now our other grandson has it, now I have it! ugh!! > My tummy feels like I am on a roller coaster!! > > IE is new to me, so I have no history to report however a new discovery > is that when I use food to drug my self, it's different than when I just > eat. My whole definition of what I am doing is totally opposite. It's like > an addict securing a good fix or hit, I chose food that will cause me to > escape, I guess is the word. I know it will knock me out and I do it for > that reason. But with IE, the food I used as a drug does not appeal to > me at all. It's like I don't even like it. When seeing it as a food and tasting > it as a food to eat, it's not all that great. When seeing it as a drug and > tasting it to escape, my passion for it is irresistible. Very weird. How can > the same thing be different according to what state of mind I am in? yet > it is. When I am eating, I want to make delicious meals with fresh > ingredients and I feel good about it and want to share it with every one. > I see food as a blessing and beautiful. But when I need to use, it becomes > something to grasp at and hide and wait for when I am alone so I can drug > out on it. It's what's in my heart and my head and spirit as to what the > food becomes. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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