Re: Old habit dies hard

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What is your experience and skills revealing to you about your next

steps?

You know that an upward movement on the scale can trigger

you....will you continue to weigh? Really feeling and being aware of

the impact of our choices is so key.

I related to much of what you wrote on your blog. There's a shift

that can happen. I have been vulnerable to getting triggered by

other people's comments about " fat " people in real life and in the

media, I've been triggered to eat by fast food commericals on tv,

I've felt like crap and helpless around food and about my past

compulsive eating habits.... What's changed is that I have the IE

principles in my life now that help me get back to center more

quickly and even prevent me from getting knocked off center in the

first place. For example, I see fast food commericals now or hear

comments about " fat " people and feel so grateful that I can ask

myself if I'm hungry and can know that I am on a journey that is

healing my relationship with my body, my life, and the world.

So, who cares what other people say or what the latest pizza special

is at Pizza Hut. If I'm hungry and I want Pizza Hut then I'll eat it

while being aware of my fullness and satisfaction. Getting

triggered, pissed or hurt about other people's comments takes energy

away from my vision for a balanced and whole life and my IE mission.

Most people are stuck in a fat is bad...skinny is better mindset

that distracts from truly healing what ails us. I've recognized more

clearly that there will always be things that will throw my out off

balance. In all cases, I have some level of control on what

influences I allow in my life and how I respond. In areas where I

have an automatic response to use food, I know that I want to spend

some time and effort developing or identifying new non-food methods

of coping.

I've found alot of pain at the core of my non-hunger eating and

sometimes I was punishing myself by eating because I felt helpless.

It sounds like you may be punishing yourself too. The upward

movement of the scale seems to have triggered a food and emotional

punishment session. You don't have to punish yourself with food and

hurtful thoughts anymore. Maybe instead be more gentle and more

compassionate with the fact that you're human and can be vulnerable

and triggered. Really take care of yourself when you find yourself

in an uncomfortable place or immediately afterwards. Accepting my

vulnerabilty has been the foundation to finding, embracing, and

tapping into renewed strength. The IE journey is a winding path with

peaks, valleys, detours, scenic routes, rocky roads, and new

vistas...as with life. After episodes where I lose balance, I learn

from the experience and I continue on the journey...am I hungry? am

I satisified/full? How can I move today?....

Latoya

Practicing IE since Jan '08.

[Guest guest]

Christie--

I know I'm new here and don't really know any of you very well, but could I offer you a cyber (((HUG))) anyway???

I wish I had loads of wisdom to share with you...but I don't. Only that I'm very familiar with what you are going through. I could have written much of your blog myself. I've been struggling a lot with depression lately and have been trying to figure out a way to pull myself out of this pit. I stopped weighing myself just a couple of weeks ago and at first I decided that I was only going to weigh myself once a month. Well, today was suppose to be the day, but I decided not to as I'm too afraid of what that number will be. And right now I can't handle that kind of devestation. I have decided I will not weigh myself until I know for absolutely sure that I'm going to like what it's going to say (which may mean I may never weigh myself again...lol)

The part of your blog that really struck a chord with me was when you said "I have turned intuitive eating into permission to eat whatever I want again." I'm finding that that is exactly what I have been doing. I feel like the food police is playing mind games with me..."But I thought nothing was to be off limits...let's find out if you really mean it..." That thought, of course, is followed by all kinds of "off limits" type foods. Lately it seems that my diet has consisted of 90% "play food" and 10% healthy I'm hoping this will change soon.

Well, anyway, I've not much for advice, just know that you are not alone.

God Bless,

Dayna:)

To: IntuitiveEating_Support From: beadluvah@...Date: Sat, 1 Nov 2008 11:46:21 +0000Subject: Old habit dies hard

Hi Everyone,I have been pretty silent this week because inside I have been having a really tough time. Please read my latest blog post and help me pull myself out of this. http://whatiateyesterday.wordpress.com/2008/11/01/old-habits-die-hard/Thanks,Christie When your life is on the go—take your life with you. Try Windows Mobile® today

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Dayna P wrote:

> I stopped weighing myself just a couple of weeks ago and at first I

> decided that I was only going to weigh myself once a month. Well, today

> was suppose to be the day, but I decided not to as I'm too afraid of what

> that number will be. And right now I can't handle that kind of

> devestation. I have decided I will not weigh myself until I know for

> absolutely sure that I'm going to like what it's going to say (which may

> mean I may never weigh myself again...lol)

Haha, what I did was the same. It was qute tempting to weigh myself but

I didn't. I don't know when I'll weigh myself again. I don't want to

deal with any numbers right now. I don't have the energy to do that. So

I'm going with the ignorance-is-bliss motto.

Regards

s.

[Guest guest]

Thanks, everyone for the support and advice, it is so comforting to know that I am not alone. Today has been much better for me so here's to finding a light at the end of a very dark tunnel.

Dayna P wrote:> I stopped weighing myself just a couple of weeks ago and at first I> decided that I was only going to weigh myself once a month. Well, today

> was suppose to be the day, but I decided not to as I'm too afraid of what> that number will be. And right now I can't handle that kind of> devestation. I have decided I will not weigh myself until I know for

> absolutely sure that I'm going to like what it's going to say (which may> mean I may never weigh myself again...lol)Haha, what I did was the same. It was qute tempting to weigh myself but

I didn't. I don't know when I'll weigh myself again. I don't want todeal with any numbers right now. I don't have the energy to do that. SoI'm going with the ignorance-is-bliss motto.

Regardss.

-- ~c~

[Guest guest]

I so love your use of metaphors regarding i.e. being a journey! Well said!

le

>

> What is your experience and skills revealing to you about your next

> steps?

>

> You know that an upward movement on the scale can trigger

> you....will you continue to weigh? Really feeling and being aware of

> the impact of our choices is so key.

>

> I related to much of what you wrote on your blog. There's a shift

> that can happen. I have been vulnerable to getting triggered by

> other people's comments about " fat " people in real life and in the

> media, I've been triggered to eat by fast food commericals on tv,

> I've felt like crap and helpless around food and about my past

> compulsive eating habits.... What's changed is that I have the IE

> principles in my life now that help me get back to center more

> quickly and even prevent me from getting knocked off center in the

> first place. For example, I see fast food commericals now or hear

> comments about " fat " people and feel so grateful that I can ask

> myself if I'm hungry and can know that I am on a journey that is

> healing my relationship with my body, my life, and the world.

>

> So, who cares what other people say or what the latest pizza special

> is at Pizza Hut. If I'm hungry and I want Pizza Hut then I'll eat it

> while being aware of my fullness and satisfaction. Getting

> triggered, pissed or hurt about other people's comments takes energy

> away from my vision for a balanced and whole life and my IE mission.

> Most people are stuck in a fat is bad...skinny is better mindset

> that distracts from truly healing what ails us. I've recognized more

> clearly that there will always be things that will throw my out off

> balance. In all cases, I have some level of control on what

> influences I allow in my life and how I respond. In areas where I

> have an automatic response to use food, I know that I want to spend

> some time and effort developing or identifying new non-food methods

> of coping.

>

> I've found alot of pain at the core of my non-hunger eating and

> sometimes I was punishing myself by eating because I felt helpless.

> It sounds like you may be punishing yourself too. The upward

> movement of the scale seems to have triggered a food and emotional

> punishment session. You don't have to punish yourself with food and

> hurtful thoughts anymore. Maybe instead be more gentle and more

> compassionate with the fact that you're human and can be vulnerable

> and triggered. Really take care of yourself when you find yourself

> in an uncomfortable place or immediately afterwards. Accepting my

> vulnerabilty has been the foundation to finding, embracing, and

> tapping into renewed strength. The IE journey is a winding path with

> peaks, valleys, detours, scenic routes, rocky roads, and new

> vistas...as with life. After episodes where I lose balance, I learn

> from the experience and I continue on the journey...am I hungry? am

> I satisified/full? How can I move today?....

>

> Latoya

> Practicing IE since Jan '08.

>