Guest guest Posted November 23, 2008 Report Share Posted November 23, 2008 In 1996 I spent 9 months Intuitive Eating - only I wasn't really aware it had a name. I had just found out I was pregnant. My first pregnancy was not a lot of fun. I worried the whole time about how I looked. I had actually tried to keep the weight down by being " careful " . I was very tired throughout the pregnancy, I felt sick, I tried some exercise because I thought I should but I soon gave up as I didn't like it. I was induced two weeks early and labour was uncomfortable, I needed an epidural and I took a while to recover emotionally and physically from the ordeal. I had a healthy baby boy but I returned from hospital 4 days later tired, sad and 26lbs heavier than when I first fell pregnant. Now here I was, 3 years later - pregnant again. This time I decided I might as well not bother dieting - I was going to gain weight anyway and hence my 9 month IE journey began.... My pregnancy was amazing! I walked because I wanted to I celebrated my changing body I didn't think about eating when hungry, stopping when full, eating what I want etc...I just did it. Chocolate and other foods I binged on were no longer forbidden so they were not nearly as delicious as I thought. I loved fruit and fresh food I stopped wanting takeaway when my husband went out and bought it I didn't stress about eating in front of the TV, or while I was reading - I did what I wanted. I weighed in every month but it was a mild curiosity, the numbers did not affect me emotionally at all. I had a fantastic healthy pregnancy. I had so much energy. When my contractions started on the very early morning of the day I was due I did some laundry and hung it out before waking my family to take me to hospital. I had a great labour, quicker, no pain relief and I had a healthy baby girl. I returned to my home the same afternoon I gave birth, healthy, happy and 2lbs lighter than when I fell pregnant. I obviously returned to my eating disorder ways and here I am years later and trying to re-create that same success. I have struggled the last week or two. I realised that I have been working on IE for 2 years and still I have not reached that stage from all those years ago. I just think about it too much!! I am not dieting but I still worry about how much I eat, if it's too little, if it's too much, am I full, did I sigh, was it nutritious, did I eat slowly enough, did I sit at the table and not in front of the pc or television.... and so on and so on. I am tired. I don't want to think about it any more but at the same time I also feel scared to let go. I have decided to give it up for a while. To stop thinking and trying too hard....until after xmas which is when I planned to review how I feel emotionally and physically. Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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