I don't think I look too bad

[Guest guest]

I have a full length mirror and when I truly look at myself in it (yes

naked usually while I'm getting dressed) I can honestly say I don't

think you're/I'm fat. I have a spare tire but all in all I'm tall and

long. My hands are bigger, my feet are bigger, my face is long, my

legs are long. As bad as it got with the dieting I could never fit

into a size 7-8 the lowest I could fit into was a size 10 and people

were commenting that my bones are popping out. I could never be a

zero...zero...hmmmm. I've always been let's say a big boned girl.

When I put my uniform on I feel good as it fits right. I find myself

buying and wearing clothes that don't fit so that one day I can fit

into them. That's one of the reasons I'm uncomfortable. I need to go

shopping and I think I will not worry about the number on the garment

just what feels and looks right for me - yes me, me in the here and now

and not for the possibility of losing 10 pounds at a later date.

J.