Eat and Eat and Eat...

[Guest guest]

I could eat and eat and eat today. It started yesterday being that bad

and continued today.

I wonder why that is.

I ate more than usually during the last days, but the last two days

(including today) were quite bad. And I still would love to eat MORE

food, chocolatey stuff especially, like cookies and cake.

I considered going out of the house for a while but it already got dark

and it's cold outside. I thought to myself " go out and WALK! " but it

felt more like a command to burn calories than anything else. Usually I

like going out with the dog and walking - except when I don't like it.

Maybe I should just drink another coffee and study. The day feels kind

of weird. I'm not sure why.

I had sushi this morning my husband got yesterday for me. I LOVE sushi.

I enjoyed my breakfast containing of sushi and a piece of cake, but I

soon realized that I wanted MORE of the sushi (but didn't have any more

available of course).

I really should learn how to kake them. I love sushi but I have them

only occasionally because it's so damn expensive and not really easy to

get (I don't like the frozen and thawed stuff, YUCK!) here. I think I'll

try them when the exam is over. I plan on trying out new recipes anyway

but don't have the nerve to do so lately.

I'm not sure why the last days were so horrible eating wise. I thought

the worst time would be over after the first part of the exam but I feel

more drained than ever and simply too burnt out to resist the urge to

eat when not hungry. I'm not eating constantly but I crave a lot of

stuff and would simply like to EAT.

Regards

s.