Guest guest Posted November 29, 2008 Report Share Posted November 29, 2008 I understand what you are saying Kim. And its not just a scale that set me 'back' about a month ago - it was not being able to fit into the jeans I wore last winter. Yikes! I told myself. I've been 'doin' IE for well over a year and a half and I'm still not 'adjusting' down?!? I have read enough similar responses to weighing and other reasons for unhappiness with not meeting expectations that we probably un-wisely set up for ourselves. So its re-set time and turning the focus back onto self acceptance and being content with doing what you can, when you can and letting that be the pad on your own back that we all need. IE is a slow process, but in hind sight - I didn't get this way over night either ;-) Best to you - Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > Hi everyone, > > I've had an interesting couple of weeks... > > About 10 days ago, I went to my nutritionist, who supports and coaches me with my IE process. I have not weighed myself since some time in August. I was not sure I'd be able to do the beginning parts of IE if I knew how much I weighed. Well, this last appointment, I was ready to be weighed and to know the number. Not because I thought I'd lost weight or would like the number - I was just ready. I felt the number would have no control over me. The number reflected an 11 pound gain. I was pretty much ok with that - I had figured I gained 6/7 lbs, so not a huge shock to me. What I have noticed is that as time goes by, the worry/obsession about my weight is coming up more often. > > I know it is totally normal and expected for me to gain weight while legalizing foods and learning my hunger/full signals - but I am scared at the same time!! I feel great, I'm active and I'm healthy. But there are times when I fall into a funk because I've gained weight. I also feel " big " at times - and look into the mirror and see a chubby 42 yr old woman who still obsesses over food. **sigh** > > On the good side, I truly do feel good and generally like my body (when I'm not looking at it!!). I have learned my hunger signals and I know when I'm full. Sometimes I still choose to eat beyond comfortable-full, but not often. My binges are diminishing - they are more like times of overeating than full-out binges. Lots of progress has been made. > > That it for now. Just needed to voice these thought!! > Kim > IE since Aug 08 > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2008 Report Share Posted November 30, 2008 Hi , Awareness is one of the first steps. For some its one of the baby steps that begin the IE journey. Like really tasting your food, savoring your progress, in any way you can make, it is a sweet delight too. The number on the scale is just a number - YOU are a person with so much more going for you than a single 'label' or statistic! ehugs, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > What happens to me is when I have been doing well, not IE, but sort of...( I > have to get the book) but I eat when hungry and feel really good. But when I > get on the scale I gain weight and that just really makes me sad and ruins my > whole day. I'm so stuck on the number. This is when I'm watching > myself...not obcessing, but watching. > > But when I don't watch and eat when and what I want....and forget abuot > dieting, I always seem to lose weight. > > Now, my relationship with food is I'm not paying attention and eating what is > offered to me. A lot a little, doesn't matter. If its put in front of me > I'll eat it. So now, I need to pay attention to what I'm doing....does that > make sense? I'm buying the book on the 3rd and I can't wait! > > > > ************** > Life should be easier. So should your homepage. Try the NEW > AOL.com. (http://www.aol.com/?optin=new-dp & amp;icid=aolcom40vanity & amp; > ncid=emlcntaolcom00000002) > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2008 Report Share Posted November 30, 2008 Oh boy, the lovely scale. I have battled it off and on for so long. I have reached the point where I won't even weigh myself unless I know I have lost weight. Like if my pants are fitting looser. I've learned that weighing myself when I am not sure if I have lost weight just sets me up for failure. The old obsessions and worries are born again. I have also become frustrated, with IE, with not loosing weight fast enough. But I try to put my frustrations within the larger context... It has taken months and years to not only gain this weight but also build a disordered eating mentality that facilitated this weight gain. Even more all my weight loss attempts in the past were crash diets, which gave me shortterm and quick weight loss. The weight loss was probably water weight but it was still satisfying to see that number drop. Longterm and sustainable weight loss while also being mentally content is far more difficult to achieve. AND we are trying to do this within a societal context that teaches us otherwise. I find myself minimizing how difficult it is to stand up against a society that is telling me I am ugly, fat and should diet. I focus too much on the end results and goals. So I just try to remind myself to focus on the journey rather than obsessing over timelines I have set for myself. I hope that helps. Good luck! - K Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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