Re: Mindful eating experiment by accident

October 29, 2008

That's a big WOW and congrats Alana Isn't it amazing how something

simple can be so challenging, yet really not a huge deal once you do

it. Bravo for you - ehugs, Katcha

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> I thought I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch today but I had

> messed up on which day we were meeting. So I went to the

> restaurant. I was really hungry when I got there. I ordered a

> glass of water. The waitress brought me that basket of bread and

> yummy olive oil to dip in. I ate a couple of slices of bread and

> waited about 15 min and finally realized my friend wasn't coming. I

> decided to go ahead and order. I normally take a book with me when

> I go to any eating establishment by myself. Today I did not have a

> book. I actually sat there and ate my lunch with no one and nothing

> else to do. I did it! I normally find this extremely

> uncomfortable. Lonely. I had to ignore voices in my head that were

> telling me people were looking at me thinking certain things like

> how the fat girl was by herself or commenting on what the fat girl

> was eating. When I make myself think realistically and rationally I

> realize that no one is probably looking at me and others are into

> their own conversations at their tables and really how silly that is

> to even be concerned with that. So what if people were looking at

> me! It would be their problem and not mine if they thought anything

> judgemental. I have to say it was hard for me to slow myself down.

> I think I am so used to scarfing down my food. But by not doing

> anything else but eat, I was forced to slow myself down. I have to

> say that I got full rather quickly and on a relatively small amount

> of food. So I ordered a take home box and took 1/2 of my lunch and

> 1/2 of the bread back to one of my co-workers. I was proud that I

> got through this situation without feeling like the floor was going

> to swallow me up. While it was uncomfortable and I don't want to do

> this very often, I know I can eat by myself in a restaraunt without

> a book and it might be a really good thing to do occassionally.

> Just to check in with myself, to get myself to slow down and really

> focus in on the food and to battle those voices in the head. A

> positive experience I must say so.

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