Re: My eating obstacle course today...

[Guest guest]

, there is lots of good insight in your post. I agree that simply

writing things like this out helps to process it for you too. Once you

are aware, you can 'see' and start thinking of other options you can

do in the future. That makes this a lesson, not a reason to beat up on

one's self. GOOD job

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

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> ksoccer:

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> Funny, when I read this, I read it the way you intended, even though

> that is not what you said. I guess the idea is a familiar one. The

> more I look at my behavior, the more I realize how much I am driven by

> fear and anxiety.

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> This very thing happened to me yesterday. I went shopping at the mall

> with my son, and we stopped at a burger joint (ny Rockets) to have

> dinner. I noticed that I was not hungry, or only slightly hungry, but

> we went in anyway because it was " dinner time " and he wanted to eat.

> The anxiety started right away. I thought that I would just get

> french fries, because I was not that hungry, but then thought that was

> not enough protein, not good to have just french fries, so I ordered

> an entire meal. I also ordered a drink because it was part of a meal

> deal when I usually do not drink anything but water. That is

> something I prefer, not a carry-over from diet rules. At that

> restaurant, they serve the fries like an appetizer, so I ate the fries

> (they were delicious!) and drank some lemonade. Of course before the

> rest of the meal arrived I was full. I ate a few bites anyway

> (because I thought I should) and packed the rest up.

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> The steps I went through during this process were fueled by anxiety.

> I felt I " needed " to order protein because it is good for me, a drink

> because it was a better deal, to eat because it was dinner time even

> though I was not hungry, and the original anxiety started when I ate

> cookies and cake in mid-afternoon and " spoiled " my appetite in the

> first place. When I do that I fear I will miss dinner, and then not

> sleep well and feel bad.

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> My son also got full before he ate his burger. It was ridiculous. I

> usually find myself making mistakes like this at restaurants. What I

> really wanted to do was order a kids meal, but I didn't know if that

> would go over since I am an adult. Or we could have split a meal.

> For some reason doing something unorthodox at a restaurant also causes

> anxiety. I need to get over that!

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> So now the food is in the fridge and I wonder if it will get wasted

> and thrown away because it doesn't taste good left over.

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> Writing out this process can do nothing but help me work it out the

> next time we go out to dinner. Thanks for listening.

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