When I lose my appetite...

September 20, 2008

More an more I'm getting clear about why and when I lose my appetite

(When my body is giving me hunger signals and I have no idea of what I

want to eat).

I volunteered last night for an end of the summer music/festival

hosted by the city where I live from 5:00 - midnight. The coordinator

of the event had been running around all day trying to make sure

everything ran smoothly. I remembered that any time I've played a

similar role...I lose my appetite...I can get so wrapped up in the

intensity/pressure that my body is experiencing that I go all day

without eating. This has had distastrous effects in the past. I had to

give a presentation at an event that I was a central coordinator for

and I had a verbal meltdown in front of an audience of 60

professionals in my area...all because I didn't have an appetite,

ignored my hunger signals, and didn't think it was a big deal not to

eat. I experienced a hard and embarrassing lesson about how food

energy helps me be verbally coherent...I can't communicate well when

I'm way passed empty.

I faced a similar issue at the festival. My body was giving me true

hunger signals and I was so overstimulated by the amount of people and

the amount of food choices that I couldn't make a decision...I

couldn't get a sense of what I wanted. So, I sat down on a bench and

tried to get calm within myself and realized that I really wanted

something like a salad. Guess what? None of the food vendors had

salads...just fried and fun foods...but I'm at this festival...I have

to eat something that's there right? Luckily, I met up with a woman I

know and she had an idea to go down the street to a restaurant away

from the festival for dinner and I had a nice meal before returning

for my volunteer shift.

When I lose my appetite...something going on within me is hiding it.

I've realized that when I have hunger and no appetite for something, I

need to take the time to get calm within myself and the answer will

reveal itself...instead of ignoring my hunger or eating something just

because it's there. Getting calm within my body when I'm unclear about

whether I'm hungry or not is also really important. Once, I clear away

emotions or mental fogs I can get a much clearer sense if I'm eating

for emotional needs or true hunger and can honor my appetite.

L.

Practicing IE since Jan '08.

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