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Last week I had my TOM. Unfortunately, this meant that I gave myself

free reign to eat without honoring my hunger. It's truly not a fun

place to be in. Last night I sat down and realized that I no longer

enjoy overeating, and I have to wonder if I ever actually did. When I

eat with no stops, it's just a physical act. There's no tasting my

food past the first bite or two, and last night I realized that

sometimes I don't even taste those two bites. It's just eating for the

sake of eating. It doesn't help with the hormonal parts of my TOM, and

it doesn't help wtih the pain.

Instead I sit here, knowing I've gained again and realizing more so

than ever, that this overeating is not working for me any longer.

I want to enjoy my food. For me, that means Intuitive Eating. I need

to wait because when I wait and when I eat when hungry, I so look

forward to it. I enjoy it. I love fall and I love all the warm, cozy

foods. I want to truly enjoy them. Not just eat them. Suddenly there's

a very big difference to me. Very big.

I want to enjoy my food again. I had it and I want it again.

My tummy knows the difference, and now so does my head and heart.

And the craziest thing of all, is how excited I am to eat this way

again. Unlike a diet where I do it because I am angry at myself,

Intuitive Eating has taught me to truly love myself and want to do

this because I care very deeply about myself. Totally new concept to

me, one I had as a child, and one I am relearning.

So back to IE I go today.

I couldn't be more thrilled!!