Observation I made

[Guest guest]

My husband is gone for five days. Left on Monday morning and will return

Friday evening.

I noticed a considerable change in eating behavior and food choice. I

still eat more than I need to but I eat less (ok, this might be a

coincidence but I don't think so). The most considerable change though

is that I shopped for some rather expensive foods, e. g. honey roasted

macadamias and sushi. I love those but don't get to eat them regularly

because they're so expensive. They're special and I use them as " treats "

or should I rather say " reward " ? This angers me as I don't want to use

food as a reward but this behavios seems to be that omnipresent that

it's almost impossible to avoid.

I tried to make a sushi substitute (as I don't have all the ingredients)

tonight. I hope they'll turn out fine. If so I can have one of my

favorite foods without having to drive an hour to get all ingredients

for " the real stuff " or having to spend a fortune for the ready made

ones. I always have a bad conscience spending so much money on special

foods.

I also have some very nasty thoughts about my hubby's eating behavior

these days, especially when thinking about his moos lowering

considerably after paying the grocery bill last Saturday. It makes me

want to spit out some nasty thoughts. :-/

Regards

s.